17 Years of Abusive Marriage Ended with a Narcissitic and Psychopath

I was married to a psychopath and narcissitic man for 17 years and have 2 beautiful kids. For 17 years I loved him worked hard and built an empire with him. But to my surprise he had planned my exit after taking away all of my earnings. For 17 years I thought I know him but today I can say I never knew what was in his heart. He was very abusive and me coming from a culture where we are taught to keep your family matters within four walls and try to keep the relationship I did everthing. I am very well educated women but today I feel ashamed that I let him do what he did to me. So many times he hit me brutally infront of his mother for no fault of mine. His mother and his anut were the witnesses to his abuse and ofocourse my kids. Today was are separated but he leaves no chance to hurt me. He took my savings my house all my belongings, and I couldn’t see what he was upto until it was all done.

My kids are with me and they stand by me that’s the blessing.

He is now dating another women and tell you the truth I feel no mercy for that women because as women sometimes we fail to see or we don’t want to see what we are getting ourselves into. He is bringing her home form 60 miles away every weekend and I can see he is trying to separate her from her family as he did to me but she cant see because she is mesmerized by the house he lives in and cars he drives.

I truly loved him but he never did and this realization came after 17 years, long time. I live on my own now with my two beautiful kids. But I pray everyday to the higher power to see to him for what he did to me both mentally and physically. My soul is still bleeding, may be it will always.

I am at peace now but thoughts run in my mind everyday what happened and why it all happened.