UPDATED FOR 2024. Editor’s note: The following email was sent by a Lovefraud reader, whom we’ll call “Pamela.” She was married to a sociopath and subject to domestic violence.
ALL ALONE
All Alone, I am lying on the floor, all “woe is me,” the man who promised to love me lied. I can’t find a friend and my own mother’s phone doesn’t work.
All Alone, I’m crying on this floor.
All Alone, I notice I am still here. I am sad, but still here, and I’ve protected my dog that he threatened. My dog is still here. And my body is healthy, even after it has been thrown and bruised, I can still GET UP.
All Alone, I feel my feet, I wiggle my toes.
All Alone, the tears stop falling, and I look at my feet, and I rise.
AND NOW, I am swelling with gratitude for the all alone I had because I learned that even if it seems like no one cares about me, I STILL care about me, and I will find others that will. I will find help. I will end this and the feelings of failure and worthlessness he tried to transfer to me. Those are NOT mine. But this body, these feet—these are mine. And so I say to them: start walking.
Thank you, Alone, because without You, I would not be able to hear my own voice.
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Lovefraud originally posted this story on Oct. 27, 2011.
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Ox Drover
Hens, the ONLY way to get skunk off the dogs is the following recipe:
1/2 cup baking soda
1/2 cup dish washing liquid
2 cups peroxide
Mix together and shampoo the dog with the above, leaving on about 5-10 minutes then rinse until there are no more bubbles (that’s a LOT)
Then pour vinegar over the dog. and towel dry.
I keep the ingredients HANDY for when my Bud dog gets after a skunk….it helps.
It actually gets rid of the skunk smell. I have not found anything else that does. Tomato juice just is like your apple-scented skunk, it is tomato scented skunk.
Now if we just had some psychopath shampoo to “wash that man/woman out of my hair” it would be great!
MoonDancer
Constantine< I did not read your comment yesterday, what thread and at what time did you post it ? and I will check it out and decide if my feelings are hurt or not..My dry wit and sarcasim have offended people before, I pretty much like everybody here and would never want to offend anyone with my simplistic jabber..
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MoonDancer
Zen-like? Yep that pretty much describes me ~! Is always nice to be recognized Constantine – as I have said before you seem to be a very nice and genuine caring person for a straight guy..thanx..
Back_from_the_edge
So sorry your puppy smells like my spath, hens. 🙂
I had a black lab, when the kids were growing up that got good and skunked and I washed him in canned tomato juice and it took the smell right out. No problem ! Hope you can cuddle with it tonight and that it’s not stinky anymore. xxoo *hugs to ya hens*
Dupey
Back_from_the_edge
Constantine, hens, KatyDid: thanks for the congrats on 6 months!
Spath is fighting it and kicking and screaming and stalking and calling and I have not said one word and I don’t intend to. There is absolutely nothing left to say. It’s just over.
I love you all and thank you for being here for me during this horrid, ugly time in my life. I shall never forget any of you.
Thanks for the doggie dance KatyDid….
Lots of love ~ Dupey
darwinsmom
TOWANDA Dupey for not saying even one word when he’s making it so hard on you, when he’s vying for your attention so much
Back_from_the_edge
darwinsmom: thanks for the wishes. It has been very hard. I think I have bitten my tongue off refraining! 😉
NOT ONE WORD FROM ME just like I promised “IT”.
NOT ONE WORD EVER AGAIN.
Vying for my attention; ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
“IT” will have my ‘attention’, alright, if the stalking doesn’t stop.
Thanks for the TOWANDA…xxoo
Dupey
Constantine
Dupey,
You’ve gotta be kidding me! Good grief. But you already know the answer to this: NOT ONE WORD TO HIM! Ever.
As soon as you engage him on any level, you’ve already lost. And once you do that, he’ll lose all respect for you. But by ignoring him, however, I GUARANTEE you he’s learning that you’re someone worthy of respect. So make sure not to disabuse him of that notion!
Good luck during this difficult period.