Editor’s note: Lovefraud received the following email from a reader who we’ll call “Adelle.” The sociopath asked, “Are you seeing someone else?” Here’s her answer.
A little over a month after leaving an abusive relationship and refusing to have any type of communication with him, he asks if I’m seeing someone else, as if that would be the only way I could get over him, or as if after such a hurricane of a relationship anyone would be inspired to move right into another. Could it be that I finally opened my eyes, that I finally picked myself up from the floor along with my self-esteem?
As I walked the other day, I pondered on that question, “Are you seeing someone else?” I’d like to answer that if I may!
Yes, indeed, I am seeing someone else. I am seeing someone who I hadn’t seen in a while. She’s changed; I do recognize her because she’s familiar to me.
The last time I saw her was a few years ago; she was on top of the world! She was in her 40s and no one believed her when she told them her age. She looked younger, full of life! She was active in her community, well liked and respected. She was an encourager, a motivator, she loved to workout; she loved to read and write. It didn’t take much to make her happy, the free things in life were what she loved: A walk in the park on a cool breezy day. Reading a good book and getting to that “Aha” moment.
I took out some old pictures the other day and saw some of her, she looked good back then. I’ve been seeing a lot of her lately, she looks different, she looks a little tired, but every day I see improvement in her. Every day she looks a little better. I used to make fun of her, because in the past she was always sick, or she thought she was. I called her a hypochondriac, she had a pill for everything. She doesn’t do that anymore, she doesn’t take a bunch of pills, in fact she threw them away! She doesn’t think she’s going through menopause; she’s not as moody or as angry as she was a few months ago. She’s happier, she’s different. She’s even lost some weight!
A few weeks back she caught herself reaching for food and paused, she thought, “Why am I going to eat this?” I’m not hungry. She realized she was feeding something that didn’t need to be fed anymore—depression. She put the food back and smiled! I am so proud of her!
She caught herself on another day too, as she got out of bed; she walked as if she was 80 years old. She had her hand on her waist to support her back and walked slowly. She soon realized there was no pain, no aches. She giggled at herself and straightened up!
She’s dressing better, she’s styling her hair, and she’s spending time with friends. She starting to look more like the girl I used to know a few years ago! She tells me her life was turned upside down, inside out like a “Hurricane.” She says she doesn’t know exactly what she’s going to do, how she’s going to fix it or where she is going. One thing she does know is where she’s been. She’s been in a storm, and she’s not going back!
I believe her, you see, I love this girl, and I know her better than anyone, better than she knows herself! I know exactly what she’s been through! I’ll be right there with her, encouraging her, cheering her on with every little step of progress she makes, no matter how minute. I missed her so much and I welcomed her with open arms!
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She’s always been a very bright girl, smart, witty, beautiful; she just had a bad experience — a LOVEFRAUD, if you will! She fell in love with someone who was wearing a mask; she was deceived. When she realized it was all a scam, all lies, she froze in fear, she couldn’t find a way out. The shame, the blame, the guilt! She gave herself away, she lost herself, but she’s coming back.
Like I said before, I’ve been seeing a lot of her lately, and every day she looks more like the girl I used to know, every time I walk by the mirror I smile at her and I tell her I’m proud of her. I ask her to not be so hard on herself; I tell her she’s beautiful!
Am I seeing someone else you ask? You bet I am, and I LOVE her!!!!
Lovefraud originally posted this article on Dec. 16, 2011.
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Stargazer
Panther, that guy in his post last night started talking about how he met “Adelle” while he was still married. But then the rest of his post talked about a relationship with someone named Olga. It was very confusing. I asked him for clarification and pointed out the confusion. That’s as far as I got.
ErinBrock
Merry Christmas!
panther
Oh, okay. Well he was talking about the poster. I asked him directly if he was the guy Adelle refers to in her post. He answered with a very distinctive YES. So, basically, he stalked her into here and then announced himself upon arriving. Dumbpath strikes out!
I’d rather not say any more than this, because I think this whole ordeal isn’t fair to Adelle. If my dumbpath started posting in here, that would be detrimental to my healing, so I flagged him as soon as I knew who he was. I will stop here.
panther
Oh, Merry Christmas EB 🙂
strongawoman
Panther, think we may have seen it in another guise already.
the phoenix
Panther- THANK YOU! for posting the link to “Please don’t feed the trolls”. Because you did and I was skimming through the comments there I found the link to the article about gaslighting, posted by Oxy.
Oxy- Thank you for posting the link there! Reading it, the light came on in my head and I had one of those A-Ha! moments… Again.
Not too long ago I had gone a few rounds with my spath about something trivial. He told me I was being a shit, I was acting like a bitch, I was arguing just to argue and on and on and on. So I took off my rings and put them away.
I went a few days without them before he asked if I was going to wear them anymore or not? I asked him why I should? I am such a shit, act like such a bitch, argue all the time for the sake of arguing… If I am such a bad person, mother, wife, etc. why would he possibly Want to be married to me? Did he really think saying ‘I love you’ makes it all right? Really?
Oh how they hate it when the tables are turned on them, their words used against them and damn it all to Hell that bitch Miss Logic went and showed up on the doorstep again!I love her. Her timing is always impeccable.
panther
the pheonix: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQT1QeUlf-Q
the phoenix
OMG! I love those cartoon videos! They are far too often, right on target. I will have to watch it later though, when I can crank the volume up.
That is right up there with the saying about never argue with an idiot. Outsiders won’t be able to tell who the idiot is.
Ox Drover
Phoenix, I will be glad for you when you can take those rings off and leave them off forever—get rid of not only the rings, but get rid of the psychopath that goes with them. Living in a “battle zone” is not a good place to spend our lives. It is very tiring and stressful to say the least.
Each day that I live in a peaceful environment I thank God for that peace and calm, the lack of drama and chaos.
I wish that for every blogger here on LoveFraud, the peace that “passeth understanding” —it is wonderful! (((hugs))))
the phoenix
Oxy- You and me both! And that stress takes a whopper knock out punch to the immune system, too.
Someone upwards in the comments was talking about thinking they were a hypochondriac. Why not? When you are stressed out, your immune system takes a big hit and you are sick a lot more often than usual. It happens a lot.
I look forward to the days of drama free peace. I know they are coming. Peace and love to all during the Holidays!