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By | March 8, 2013 65 Comments

Healing is a journey

By Joyce Alexander, RNP (retired)

I’ve written here many times that I used to think that healing was a place we arrived at and that once we got there “everything would be wonderful.”  I have learned in my latest tangles with the multiple psychopaths in my life that healing is NOT a place that we arrive at, but it is a Journey.

I have no doubt looking back at my relationship with my P-sperm donor that I had PTSD when  I escaped from his clutches at least alive, which is more than some of his victims have done. I was 19 and had no one to advise me. Looking back, I wanted to talk to people about this trauma and no one seemed to either believe or care. Even my Egg Donor didn’t believe a word I said. I felt invalidated and alone. Eventually I managed to “move on” with my life by burying these memories and injuries, and I felt I was “healed.” I thought I had arrived at healing.

Frustrated about my son

Years later, in dealing with my psychopathic son, I was so frustrated that I couldn’t get through my beloved son’s head that he was ruining his life with his criminal behavior. All he had to do was to quit robbing and stealing, apply himself in school and he could have had a free ride scholarship to any school in the nation, on his SAT scores alone. But I was frustrated because I couldn’t find the “magic words” to show him how much I loved him and how great his life would be if he would listen to me.

A few years later, when he was 20, out of prison on parole, I found out that he had murdered a 17-year-old young woman. Talk about a “relapse” into PTSD— I had one. I still didn’t really realize just what I was dealing with. I only knew that my son, who of course denied he was guilty, was going to prison for possibly the rest of his life. I locked myself in my house for three months and cried continually. I didn’t eat for nearly two weeks, and didn’t sleep at all for one full week. Can we say “Shell Shocked” or “PTSD”?

Then, eventually, I felt like I was “healed” from the trauma of learning my son was going to prison for “life” and adapted. Life went on and I planned for the time he would get out and come home to live and  straighten himself out. He could have some life left after prison. The family would support him and help him reestablish himself.

Father and son psychopaths

I read Robert Hare’s book Without Conscience, and I saw that my P sperm donor was a psychopath. I yellow highlighted almost the entire book, but I was in denial for years that my beloved son, also fit every criteria. Eventually, though, I realized that my son was just as much a psychopath as my P sperm donor and that I could no longer “be supportive” of him. I cut him off. No more visits, no more commissary money. NO CONTACT.

The “summer of chaos” came, when I realized that he had sent someone to kill me. Then the PTSD returned in full force as my other son and I fled our home in fear of our lives.  All the issues I had buried and not dealt with from my family of origin resurfaced. I had to heal or die, I was a total mess, like I had melted into a heap, and I knew somehow I had to find that elusive “place of being healed.”

Learning and healing one layer at a time through self help

I started to read obsessively about psychopaths. I read everything I could find on the Internet and in books about them, and about self-help for healing from trauma and I started to find comfort. I found Lovefraud and I realized I was not the only smart woman in the world who had been traumatized by psychopaths. I had to find some way to stop the pain, though. So I would find comfort in one thing and “get over” something else. It was like “peeling an onion—”when I got one layer of trauma peeled, there was another one underneath that one, and so on.

I learned all I needed to know about psychopaths, and knowing all of that helped in my healing. It made me feel better, but I also realized I needed to learn about myself. I needed to learn a lot about myself. Why I allowed people, not just the psychopaths, to walk on me. I realized I felt responsible for other people’s happiness, and that I would let them walk on me repeatedly. I realized finally, that my boundaries were weak or non-existent.

The healing “journey”

Finally, at some point I realized that I would never find a “place” called HEALED. I would never be totally and completely healed. I realized that healing is a journey, not a destination. I realized that it starts off learning about them. At some point though, we realize that all the knowledge in the world about psychopaths isn’t going to heal us. We reach a point that we may not know everything about them, but we know enough. Then we must start to learn about ourselves in order to really start to move toward healing. I used to think I knew “enough” about myself and that I was a pretty nice person and fairly well adjusted to life. But I realized, finally, that now the healing road is a continual one, one that moves on and on.

Sometimes that road may have smooth sailing. Other times it may have pot holes, or steep mountains to climb, or snow and ice and chilling winds as we start to process what happened to us. But there are always going to be setbacks in life that will try our strength and our determination.

I’ve worked on fixing myself, from things like learning to set boundaries about how I will or will not allow people to treat me. I’ve learned to enforce those boundaries even if it meant that long term relationships were lost.

I’ve also done other things to “improve” myself, like stopped smoking, lost some weight, went on a low sodium diet, all the things I used to advise my patients to do, but didn’t do myself. I quit being a hypocrite, in other words.

I learned the “red flags” of a toxic person, and realized  that if a person is dishonest in any way, or irresponsible, a liar, or unkind or lacked empathy or compassion, I didn’t need that person in my life.

I’ve done a lot of things to improve myself, and I realize that I need to continue to work on becoming the kind of person I would want my children to be.  There is no place called “Healed,” but there is a journey called “healing” and it is “life.” Anyone who has dealt with a psychopath for long enough that they were traumatized by the association needs to heal, and that “healing” is a process that takes time and work, and is a journey, not a destination.


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lesson1learn

thank you for sharing your journey. may God continue to bless you.

Truthspeak

Joyce, thank you SO, so much for this insightful article. I needed to read this, right now.

This has been an issue for me (as you know), that I want to BE HEALED from my experiences. Sometimes, it’s that “inner child” that’s demanding an end to the journey – GET there, already! And, it’s not a finality. It just isn’t.

Each day brings new challenges – whether it’s engaging with “new” people, or paying bills with what I have available. But, it’s an ongoing process and you’ve told me (and, others) this on numerous occasions.

Today – right now – it’s feeling more like a “blessed” journey that’s taking me towards a more centered and balanced Truthspeak. It’s a hard journey and arduous. But, it’s finally (at long farking last) a “good” journey, EVEN with the potholes and challenges.

Again, thank you so very much for this article.

Brightest blessings

Ox Drover

I realized (finally!) that there isn’t an END to the healing journey as long as we are alive…we can reach a way station I call “recovery” where the worst pain of it all is behind us, but learning about ourselves is a lifetime of exploration.

Just like my stopping smoking I think. I no longer think about cigarettes all day long, every day, or CRAVEEEEEEEE them, so I think I am “recovered” from my addiction to them, but not “healed” of it because there ARE times I still want them, but I resist.

Maybe that’s not the greatest analogy in the world (I can see some holes in it LOL) but can’t think of a better one right now.

Truthspeak

OxD, yeah………..it’s encouraging to learn and accept that truth. There isn’t a destination on my Healing Path. There’s just this journey and I’m liking your analogy, BIG time. 🙂

Hopeforjoy

Oxy,

Wow, how can you even quantify the amount of trauma you’ve had in one lifetime. I admire your strength of spirit so much.

I was telling my therapist that by the time I was twenty three, three total men in my life had tried to strangle me. My dad, brother and first husband. That crap ain’t right, but I justified it by “he was just angry, he still loves me”.

Starting from a legacy of abuse, we become like a “deer in the headlights” when something tiggers us. I was walking in a dream for so much of my life. Reality is hard, it sucks, but it’s sure better than having toxic people in ours lives, always taking from us and hurting us.

I also have many books on narcissism, sociopathy, psychopaths, controlling people, etc. I needed to know what the heck I was dealing with. Now I’m trying to heal by focusing on positive messages too. I just bought the meditation book you recommended.

I think the waves of pain from our past injuries hit us stronger when the injury happens, and again when we’re re-injured, but then the waves slowly ebb until there is barely a ripple.

I have come to cherish peace and harmony and calm seas.

Ox Drover

Dear Hope4, I agree with you, when we are first injured, and we don’t really “recover” it we just REPRESS it, when the NEXT injury comes along it hits us harder and the next even harder….geometericly. Multiplied, not added.

When we DO start on the healing path though these old problems and wounds start to resurface like rocks in a pasture when the freeze thaw cycle of winter snow and rain heave them to the surface.

I know that I have picked a field free of rocks and only find it covered in them the next spring. My family has been picking up rocks on these fields for generations, but no matter how many we pick up there are always more it seems. I think with our recoveries it is the same way, when we recover from the last big injury we find others that are shallowly buried and we pick up only to find more beneath them. AA calls it “peeling the onion” and that’s another good analogy.

But as we get “the worst” of things taken care of, it is EASIER to take care of the next one I think because we have learned NEW TALENTS and developed NEW TOOLS and NEW STRENGTHS in order to deal with these things.

So it gets easier as we go along I think and there are less pot holes and less new injuries because we have learned boundaries and how to protect them so we are SAFER.

Hope4, I hope things are going well with you? What is up iin your life?

dorothy2

Oxy, that is an awesome post!! I have heard the onion analogy but the rock analogy is great! It’s a common issue where I live so I can relate!

discovering

Friends;
I have discovered this site and from reading here I am learning so much. I was married to my P for 30 years. I still don’t know how I didn’t know- everyone loves my husband and thinks we were the perfect couple. We did everything together. On our 30th anniversary, he turned to me with sad eyes and said, you’re the only one who’s never left me. Strange I thought- he works nearly an hour away from our home. I began tracking him and his calls and found evidence of several affairs and flirtations. Over time I realized that he wasn’t the man I thought he was and began questioning unmercifully. It wasn’t until I put a GPS on his car that I learned that he was spending 2 or 3 days a week with another woman (while supposedly working). Confronted, he gaslighted me, and put arsenic in my drink (doctor found it in my system). I also believe that he has had someone following me- divorce is going to cost him. I am hoping that someone has some advice for me on what worked worked for them. I am interviewing attorneys this week (filed with an attorney who told me I needed medication- he’s out!). Am living in nearly constant fear of his “web” of friends, I have lost my job and am living with family. Any advice would be appreciated.

Ox Drover

Dear discovering,

WOOW! I’m sorry you are going through such a horrifiic situatiion. I suggest that you never go anywhere alone if you can help it.

My son (a P) tried to have me killed and I carry a gun, but if you are not were you can carry one, or are not comfortable carrying one, get SEVERAL CANS f WASP SPRAY..the kind that shoots a STREAM of poison about 20 feet. Put one in your car and one on every flat surface of where you live. Don’t be out of arm’s reach of a can at any time.

It sounds like your soon to be X is a dangerous one. Many are toxic but not murderous.

Yes, get an attorney who GETS IT…READ HERE there arre many many great artiicles and great support.

Also I suggest that you get some counseling, not because you are crazy but because you are scared, and rightly so!

God bless and hang in there. There is lots of support here.

Radar_On

Dear discovering, I’m so very sorry to hear of what vile things that have been perpetrated against you! One of the first things that come to my mind, is your saftey! Is the demon still in the house? If he is, you have to be very careful to CONCEAL YOUR EMOTIONS! Any acting out, or confrontations on your part will only “give him more info, of your intents”! Next, you need to start compiling documentation of anything you can. Doctors reports, blood work, of what was found in your system…etc. You have to try to stay a step, or few steps ahead of him. You have to protect yourself! Trying to “reason” with him is FUTILE! Sounds like he will try to do whatever it takes to utterly destroy you. I know, that is what my soon-to-be-ex is trying to do to me currently. You are engaging a DEMON. If you have a trusted friend, maybe a close confidant, that you can find refuge with, would be helpful! Do not try to “tell everybody what he’s been doing, for most people would probably wouldnt believe you anyway. WELCOME to Lovefraud. This is THE best cyber-place for people who GET IT, what you are going through! Many great, understanding, validating articles…and comrades here who have been smeared, slimed, used, abused, brutalized, sodomized, ridiculed, you name it! Dear discovery…WE GET IT! Keep posting, reading, sharing, update us on your situation! Please! Sincerely, Radar_On

Dear Discovering,
As Oxy and Radar_On have already insisted,YOU MUST BE CAREFUL!I can imagine how you’re feeling at this time,but for your safety’s sake,you’ll have to keep your emotions in check!Once a sociopath/psychopath decides to destroy….well they have one-track minds!Let someone know where you will be at all times and when you expect to be back.Do whatever is necessary and within the law to protect yourself.WELCOME!

Oxy,
Once again,you’ve done a wonderful job of expressing yourself and helping us here at lovefraud-EXCELLENT article,thanks!

Radar_On

Excellent article OxD. Yes, it will be a lifelong journey for sure. Happened upon a wonderful poem I would like to share here. God’s Broken Rose: Two roses, both unkissed by the dew,
from the same scrawny rose bush grew.

One, long-stemmed, was young and proud;
the other, broken, stooped and cowed.

Burned by the sun and scorched by the winds,
they both grew, but were not friends.

Said Proud Rose, “I shall not bend!
Though thin and young, myself I’ll mend!

Our pitiful bush reeks of neglect;
myself I’ll nurture and earn respect.”

No taller rose in the garden grew
as her shabby rose bush she outgrew.

Broken Rose bent low with shame,
for she brought no pride to the rose bush name.

How she longed for sweet fragrance to give!
If only someone would bend and forgive

Her mildewed leaves and her thorny stems,
and the way she hung from a broken limb.

Comparisons made between each rose
only made them hold their petals closed.

“I’ll not open up my petals here!”
said Proud Rose as she hid her tear.

“My petals are soft and belong in a vase,
not in this tumbleweed-grown place.”

Proud Rose grew so straight and tall
that soon she wasn’t there at all.

High, high above her bush she grew,
’till all alone in the sky she flew.

Her leaves she washed, her stems she pruned,
and all alone she covered her wound.

And then on day in her lonely flight,
The Gardener came and sealed her plight.

With cutters sharp, He took her from
the weed-grown-garden she had shunned.

Now everyone would surely see
the beautiful bud she had grown to be!

A crystal vase on a table of wood;
a single rose bud sure looked good.

More stately she looked than any bud could;
but the rose was scared as she singly stood,

for she knew she her short days
as a single-cut-rose in a crystal vase.

Broken Rose hung scarred and torn
and wondered why she had been born.

No one cared she was hanging there,
and soon she, too, no longer cared.

It was plain to see she’d never be
the beautiful rose bud she wanted to be.

No lover would pick her to give away;
no table graced with her gnarled sway.

She couldn’t stand with her face upturned
and be a rose, for she never learned.

Day after day, she hung up side down
and talked with the tumbleweeds she found.

“Tell me, weeds, what do you see?
Why would God make a rose like me?”

The hot winds blew, and then one day
The Gardener stopped and looked her way.

She cringed as He bent down very low,
and why He picked her, she didn’t know.

Her mildewed leaves and gnarled stems
He pruned as He drew her close to Him.

Petal by petal, He crushed and said,
“Your fragrance will last for years ahead.

I made you not for eyes to see,
but for your aroma, My Potpourri

(c) 1998-2010 Godwoman, April Lorier Best wishes to all!

Ox Drover

Radar, that was a lovely poem, thank you for sharing.

Yes, I do think our healing is a journey, but that doesn’t mean we can’t “recover” from the trauma, we will be DIFFERENT but not broken.

Thank you Radar_On,
I LOVED the poem!Better to be appreciated as aromatic than a short-lived rose!Or as my dad used to say,”Don’t let the rose cause you to overlook the orchid.”

Truthspeak

Radar, what a lovely poem. I’m of the belief that I’m okay, regardless of my missing petals and tattered leaves. I have a purpose, somewhere. As OxD mentions, I am quite different from the person that I was 16 months ago. I don’t even recognize that former self.

I don’t “like” the changes I’ve experienced, but I’m grateful for them – I needed to address and change so many, many aspects of myself.

Brightest blessings

Hopeforjoy

Dear Truthspeak,

You have had quite the road to travel. You sound stronger than the person you were and I feel like you’re becoming more of yourself, if that makes any sense.

You could have easily given up the fight and become apathetic or deeply depressed, you haven’t though, you continue on because you have a strong spirit!

Hugs

Hope4joy

Hopeforjoy

Dear Oxy,

Thanks for asking about me, I have been going to the University to get my degree for human resource development. My ex used to call them nazi’s (h.r.) probably because he was always in trouble with them.

I am dating a decent man, he was my next door neighbor when I was growing up. I still did a background check on him though. I’m taking my time with it.

My daughter is a freshman in college and she is doing well. She still has lots of anxiety and it’s a stuggle, she has made friends there and she comes home every weekend.

My son is still a worry. He shows signs of abuse but he’s protective of his dad. I read all I can about men recovering from sexual abuse because I want to do the right thing if it ever proves true. My therapist says that there isn’t enough proof, son has said some inappropriate things and has had a personality shift.

I hate so much that son is being used and manipulated. When I had it with his insulting comments I told him it was unexceptable to treat me like that and it seemed like he didn’t want to be here with me at all. He broke down and said he loved us and doesn’t want to stop seeing us.

Son is just torn and is acting out with me. It’s not okay for him to be disrepectful and even though it’s hard, I need to enforce that.

I have faith that one day I will find out what son has gone through with his sperm donor. Unfortunatly, I know anything is possible.

I hope all is well with you! How is your dog doing? Have you heard anything from the parole board? I’m always here reading your postings, you have a lot of wisdom!

Warm hugs,
Hope4joy

Ox Drover

Dear Hope4,

I know your son’s situation is painful for you (and for him) but unfortunately, we can’t live their lives for them, or stop them being abused iif THEY are brainwashed by the abuser, which your son seems to be.

I agree with you setting FIRM boundaries with him, and even though he may not like them, they will model acceptable behavior for him and that’s a good thing I think. I think your stance of “that is unacceptable behavior. People who love each other treat each other with respect and that’s the way it will be in this house.” is a good one.

Glad your daughter is doiing well in college.

My dog is doing GREAT and at this point in time has no pain in her hips, I know it is coming but she’s just great and I feel very safe with her sleeping beside my bed each night and I know I will when son D is gone for the summer. Plus we are installing a new security system as well.

Nothing from the parole board, it will be sometime between august and december.

Hopeforjoy

Dear Oxy,

So happy to hear your dog is doing well, she sounds like a wonderful companion. And I’m super glad you’re investing in a new security system! I have piece of mind having one in my home. The stalking behavior stopped but again, you never know with these people and what they’ll try next. They never give up!

I’m sure you know this fact very well having to deal with it with Patrick. It’s like they never forget a “perceived” injury. Of course their perception is all wonky!

discovering

Thanks for the welcome and advise.

I have been reading and reading, sadly my situation seems to be unusual in that I was married to him for so long and we had kids, homes, assets ect. I was so young when I met him and came from an alcoholic home – I see the signs of how he lured me. He came to my job everyday and basically did all of the things that let him know that I didn’t have boundaries. (that is a new idea for me) Always allowed myself to be there for everyone and didn’t realize that it was because I had no boundaries. We actually had a fairly good relationship or so I thought for most of the 30 years. At one point he said he would divorce me as soon as the kids were out of highschool, but I think that this new idea (killing me instead) came to him. I do feel like there is another person helping him with this planning as he receives many restricted calls. The women that he sees are just narcissistic supply- I am wondering if he might be bisexual.

BISEXUAL- to the woman who posed this. I began noticing that my husband was looking in the rear view mirror at men biking on the road, he mentioned that some man rowing on the river near where we lived had spandex on, and lastly his head spun around when we passed a nice looking older man in a speedo! So this is grossing me out because we had sex several times a week.

ATTORNEYS- wondered if you went the litigation route or the mediate with attorney route. I have interviewed two and need to make a choice in a week or so.

SAFETY- I wish I could secure a gun, but not sure that it would help as I do feel he has other people involved in this attack on me. I was definetly followed one day as was my mother ( I had been using her car for a few days and she was approached by a man that had the same discription as the one who followed me a few days before)
I like the idea of the spray, but again, not sure who or where I might be when attacked. Feel like it is not if, but when. I am hoping for order of protection, but was told that there was no proof that he put the arsenic in my food. Can you hear me screaming now????

Discovering….

darwinsmom

Discovering,

This spath is highly dangerous and very cold and cunning. He’s using methods by proxy… that are difficult to prove or can be blamed on others, possibly even yourself. And yes he probably is using minions to do the deed.

You shouldn’t need to prove he poisoned you to get an RO. It’s enough to express fear and stalking behaviour. I would recommend to install cameras and tracking devices to gather evidence.

Have you considered to go in hiding or a shelter? You can always get a divorce after.

Truthspeak

Hopeforjoy, it’s so good to “see” you and I’m getting there. It has been one of those journeys that I simply don’t talk about to anyone, anymore. The facts about my experiences are so outrageous that nobody can believe that they’re true.

Some days are great, and others are grievous. But, the grievous days are becoming fewer and further between, and I am absolutely grateful for the recovery.

Really, it’s so good to “see” you! 😀

Brightest blessings

discovering

darwinsmom,

You are exactly right! He used arsenic and actually drenched my drinking glasses in it as well as put it in my all natural vitamins. Both actually can contain arsenic I learned on the web. Cops did imply that I did this to myself and boy did that piss me off! My entire digestive track was highly inflammed( as evidenced from an upper GI and colonoscopy). My hair had begun falling out and my thyroid was shrunken. Just came back from the drs and things are better physically, but it’s the emotional toll that I am dealing with now. I was actually in hiding and he called everyone to find me, told my sons that I took off with another man…that kind of &*^%. I had the idea to trap him by hiring a PI when he went on a trip out of state- begged me to accompany him because we could work on the marriage, blah, blah, blah. PI found a drunken coworker leaving his room in bare feet (but nothing happened- famous P inability to accept responsibility). I really wonder who his “minions” are as I didn’t think he was bright enough to pull this off on his own.

MULTIPLE MASKS- does anyone feel like their P has been using multiple masks? Since I left him, I have seen the “real” evil him- very charming, a little/hurt boy, the man I married, and one that seemed to “float” across the room- by this I mean he was so light on his feet (this was the one who poisoned me).

I’ll keep reading and taking it all in- very scary stuff here.
discovering……….

discovering

Oxdrover;

OMG, I’m sorry about your son. It’s such a betrayal- who knew that you would be open to such heartache.

I do believe that I will have to be smarter thaqn my P in order to save my life…I have a lot of dirt on him and I will have to use it as leverage. He could lose his job and pension- something he’s worked very hard towards.

I feel that my sons both have signs of the disorder, the older one was awlful growing up- a real handful, trouble following rules and with shop lifting. The younger one has a learning disability, is lazy and tends to be two faced. Neither one has shown any evidence of violence, but then again their dad hid it from me for a long time.

I have been so gullible for so long. Never again! But of course, I never knew such evil existed….

discovering

darwinsmom

discovering,

I would not let him know what you have on him, nor threaten him with it directly. It will give him all the more reason to kill you to keep the lid on it.

However, what you can do is have information ready to be exposed at his job and other important contacts for him in case something happens to you. Give the papers to a trusted lawyer or notary who can send it. And let him know about it through the grapevine (through your sons), that you changed your will and that it contains the order of releasing and sending documents with evidence to people he doesn’t want to lose face with. In that case it would be in his best interest to have you be alive for many years to come

discovering

Blossom 4th and Radar On-
love that, my radar is too ( I think it’s anxiety actually) Just trying to wrap my brain around this is the most unbelievable to me. And to think that I gave him my love, children, and life- sickens me. I am working with a counselor who is a specialist in clinical pathology- works with these monsters daily (he is a good source of truth for me and has spoken with the lawyers I am considering). I will keep you posted on how things go next week when I meet with them. Yes, I can use the legal system-if they believe me…

discovering that legal doesn’t always support us….

bluemosaic

Kinda had a rough day today. Reading to sooth self…connect.

Multiple masks:
Spath I knew certainly did. He could be the caring , nurturing mate who listens and faked caring about how I feel. Cook for me while I was at work. Set up a romantic picnic. He could be abusive, insulting and crueler than I have ever been with before. Tell me what he planned on doing to me intimately, loud so others would her..in a restaurant! Then there was the little boy who would crawl over to me and lie his head in my lap and tell me how he worshipped me…that I had brought such peace to his life. Leave notes on table…telling me how much he loved me and would be home soon. The mask that flew into to a rage when a woman threatened his power…resulting in his use of C word. I loved a couple masks…feared most of them…and now I know none were the real him. I don’t think there is a real him. Just a series of fake shells over an empty space.

Bi-sexual:
A tell of his to me once…”the only pure love he ever had was with a man..no emotion involved, just raw and pure” I chalked this up to his drunken state, wish I had been alarmed…”paradoxical response”. I acted understanding…”us women , we are soooo emotional.” No judgement from me…no sireeee.

I am reading, still learning (never want to repeat, going to arm myself) Very sad and angry today. Thx to all who are here.

Blue

Blue,
I can see how those masks could confuse you!

Try not to read too much.You need to be able to relax also.Put on some favorite music.Add some scented oil to the bath and RELAX!

Bravo to you (and anyone) in eliminating a sociopath out of your life. From my experience, the most effective way to get over any damages left behind from their terrorist acts is to:

1.) Start taking care of yourself, even when you don’t feel like it.

2.) Reclaim your passions again.

3.) Express yourself in the form of art. It can be in the form of visual or auditory arts. This also proves as an effective mental distraction from any thoughts of the sociopath.

4.) Realize the uniqueness in you that drew the sociopath to you in the first place, then enhance those very same qualities. Sociopaths are usually drawn to people whom they envy.

5.) Give yourself time. And more time. The only effect way to get rid of the memories of a sociopath is to let time heal all wounds. The more distracted you are with enhancing your life, the less time you have to think about him/her.

6.) And last, but not least, train yourself to break the emotional attachment to the sociopath. The sooner you can do this, the better.

Source: 22 years of dealing with (and defeating) sociopaths.

http://learus.wordpress.com/2013/03/04/the-sociopath-a-social-terrorist-part-1/

Ox Drover

Good advice Learus…and I would add, NO CONTACT with the sociopath!

bluemosaic

Thank you Learus,

Very good advice. It is especially nice to hear that some of the reasons he was drawn to me are to be celebrated and re-built. I was once a very happy,peaceful and spiritually centered woman. It has seemed odd to me that my experience de-stabilized that part of me so much. I will work at re-claiming the inner peace I once had. Thank you for the self-care list…my mind is not as clear as it once was..it’s nice to get a homework list to make it simple for me!

Blossom4th,
Thx to you too…it must be obvious in my posting that I am studying, at an OCD pace, trying to learn how to fix the damage to my mind, psyche and soul. I think today, early a.m. will be my only reading here, maybe tomorrow…none. maybe I will go for a hike instead! And then a warm soothing soak..Thx for your input too, the outreach from those who have been through this is invaluable to me. I really am so grateful for the caring and compassion of all LF’ers!

Hugs,

Blue

Truthspeak

Discovering, yes – they maintain a closet full of various masks and, for a good while, are able to change them without anyone seeing it.

Over time, the exspath began to lose control of which mask he was wearing for specific occasions – he would FORGET (or, not care enough) to switch them out, and responses, retorts, and actions became increasingly more, and more self-serving.

Brightest blessings

Truthspeak

Bluemosaic, the “bisexual connection” isn’t all that uncommon in spaths. It’s not a matter of gender preference with the disordered. It’s more a matter of using sex as a stimulant – sort of like drinking coffee or smoking cigarettes.

Spaths are unable to form an emotional bond, even with their pets (that is a WHOLE ‘nother discussion). Because they cannot form emotional bonds, they view sex as an expression of human connection, but they never, ever “feel” that connection. SO……the sexual interests vary widely because it’s a means to an end (ensnare, destroy, discard), as well as a “pleasing” activity to them. The pleasure aspect only goes as far as the hunt, chase, and Big O. The hunt and chase is almost as orgasmic for them as the actual physical act – it’s a rush of control and power that substitutes for genuine human connection.

The exspath’s sexual interests were so repellently violent that I am STILL having a very difficult time separating my own sexual identity from his extreme BDSM, snuff, and veiled necrophilia. But, I have to remember that he is devoid of a true soul and that I cannot allow what he is to define who I am. I know this on an academic level, but I don’t know how to get there, yet.

So, the whole point is that we are not defined by them, their actions, their sins, their crimes, or their preferences. What they prefer is destruction: complete dismantling of another human being, regardless of gender. If sex will facilitate this goal, then it doesn’t matter if it involves whips, chains, bisexual activities, or a herd of goats. Sex, for spaths, is a means to an end.

Brightest blessings

bluemosaic

Great clarification Truthspeak. Interestingly, he did “tells” in this area…he told me he only enjoys sex when it is primal and agressive, with no emo involved…ofcourse ridiculing me for not performing up to his deviant desires.
Hugs,

Blue

Sunflower

Hi Everyone!

I found this very interesting site I’d wish to share with you. It gave me a deeper understanding of my own trauma and the bond created due to the trauma, that happened with the spaths I’ve had in my life. It’s about sexual assaults. I do not recommend reading it if your wounds are still fresh, it might trigger and provoke alot so “readers” discretion is adviced. I would recommend you to be further down the journey in healing before going into this.

It gave me answers I’ve been searching for, for a very long time, about what happens energetically or spiritually if I may say, between the offender and victim during an assault.

http://drlwilson.com/articles/RAPE.htm

Tea Light

Thanks sunflower I’ll store the link and visit when I’m physically recovered from my sinus infection, too down with it for revisiting my abuse tonight but will definately read later. Peace and love to you x

discovering

Blue; Hope you are feeling better today.

MASKS: I have noticed more and more that the masks are slipping. I think it might be because he is trying different tactics to manipulate me, even his voice mail sounds a little different as do the tone of his text messages. Mine had the little boy mask too (guess that’s the one they start with- I only saw that in the very end) The supportive/loving spouse, yes that too. Oddly the first time he had ever attacked me verbally was when we went to marriage counseling and told the therapist that my dad wasa abusive to me and that he killed my self esteem. Guess this was his attempt to trash me. Again oddly, he has not done more trashing (guess he’s sticking to quiet violence)

Truthspeak; MASKS, do you think this is what leads to the “slips” that he says or maybe the verbal clues that he leaks to show how superior he is?

discovering

Ox Drover;

NO CONTACT: I can’t say enough how valuable this step is. It is critical to self healing. I went between texting/meeting/emailing…NO MORE!!!

Truthspeak: I suggested to my spath that we add a few sex toys to the mix and he got very upset- guess I was getting the normal sex and he was using others for the kinky stuff.

HURRAY: My second HIV test came back clean!

Louise

Tea Light:

Feel better, love. x

carriesguns

as long as you are re-running the experiences, questioning where and when you “went wrong” then in a way you are still doing that running battle with him.
“there is a thin line between love and hate”…but each tie you to a person. myself, i learned to realize i was thinking about him/us, and each time i did that, i was “giving him my energy”. for me, that phrase was very illuminating, and led me to finally closing all contact, doors, phone calls and finally even any thoughts.
and that is just deliciously GOOD!!

Radar_On

carriesguns, yes! as another poster here put it: “Mind over Matter…I don’t Mind anymore, because he does’nt MATTER!

Imara

carriesguns
I still do find myself doing a lot of ruminating about my life….but you’re right.In doing that I am giving him more than I ever wish to…. I have my daughter’s wedding to plan now so maybe there will be less of my energy to give to him anyway!!!!

Distressed Grandmother

OXY
Your cigarette example to me is a great way to put it.We are addicted to our children just like a cigarette. No mater how much they hurt us just like a cigarette does we tend to forgive and go back for more. Although we know the truth deep down we live in denial because we do not want to face the truth. Why is what keeps me wondering? Why is our love so strong for our children that we do not want to give up hope. We hope that one day they will change. One day they will love us as much as we love them. I loved my mother as much as I love my children. I think it is my love for my mother that makes all of this so hard to understand. My mother was like you and me. She also suffered at the hands of a daughter like mine and they did not talk for 20 years. Mom did welcome her back.She never talked about the past, but never trusted her again either. It was all caused from misunderstandings and gossip but my sister to this day has never really forgiven my Mom and my Mom died not trusting her. It was me who invited my sister to my Moms 80th birthday. If I would pay her way home she would come . Moms eyes light up with surprise and happiness but by the time the visit was over There was a relief in Mom when she left. Mom died loving her but not sure how to deal with her and was afraid to say the wrong thing. Although my Mom took a drag of that cigarette again she never felt comfortable with it. This is where our journeys take us. Just like a addiction up and down up and down.
Hugs Oxy hope all is well!

Ox Drover

Dear Grandmother,

I noticed the other day when my son D and I were talking that I no longer “miss” my egg donor, I also no longer “miss” my son Patrick.

It’s odd, he hasn’t lived in my home since 1988, yet I missed him every day for two decades. I’m at peace with the separations now. It has been a long hard road though.

I stiill fear him, but not miss him.

Distressed Grandmother

I know about the long hard row and it has only been four years. I sure hope I find peace before two decades. I have excepted and forgave a lot to be able to live with myself and my mixed up feelings but I still hang onto that hope button. I just need the proof one way or another. Prove to me she is a manipulating liar. Or prove to me she is brainwashed and submissive because I really do not understand how a whole town can despise the ground he walks on and she only see’s the love even though she admits it has been the hardest four years of her life. I am a common sense person and none of this makes sense. I do not know how big of a brick has to hit me but it has not hit me yet. I fear the man she is with but I do not fear her. I do not trust her and sometimes think I should fear her. I do still miss her too! How much does a child have to do to a mother before we wake up?I see what has happened to you and what it took.Please dear lord do not even let me feel the pain that you have gone through.What I have gone through is more than enough pain for anyone to handle. There is no dought God has carried you through your journey other wise I do not think you would be here right know. No one can carry all that pain and mental abuse alone. We are all with you here oxy and I am very grateful for your story your honesty and your strength.

Ox Drover

Grandmother, he has her fooled like Patrick fooled me, and my boy friend fooled me, and my sperm donor fooled me and Donna’s husband fooled her and Liane Leedom’s husband fooled her and every one here has been fooled but she has made her choices, and you are not able to change that. It doesn’t make any difference if she is ALSO a P or not, the way she has chosen to treat you and her kids is TOXIC, but there is nothing you can do except pray.

God has held my hand when I couldn’t stand. I do not claim to have survived on my own. My faith was only as a mustard seed but He helped me through.

OpalRose

Dear Oxy – I finally got some time to sit down and catch up on my reading. Thank you so much for this wonderful article. I’m probably going to ramble a bit.

After 30 years of marriage to a spath, I made my discovery of the spath husband’s extracurricular activities in Aug 2009. I found Love Fraud soon after and the first piece of advice I followed was from you – take dead relationships off life support. I lost most of my kinfolk within a few weeks, but I started sleeping better. It shocked me that they dropped me so easily and yet I felt so much better. That was my initial step in healing – your advice was so practical and so helpful. It has been such a journey since then with so so so many twists and turns and feeling more and more like myself, if that makes any sense.

Talking about masks, he had so many. The hurt little boy, the angry psycho hose beast, the competitor for attention, the cutesy performer, the shameless flirt, the envious disdainer, the self-proclaimed expert, etc. I don’t think there is a real person in there anywhere. He always blamed me for his bad moods.

Here is an article that helped me in terms I could understand about his moods. Scroll down to the Pin Ball Wizard entry – hilarious but oh so true. You may have to copy into the browser to access (April 2011 entry).

http://alexandranouri.com/2011/04/

Throughout the marriage he left me on multiple occasions due to changing jobs so often. He would only keep a job for 2-3 years at most. He would always leave me destitute and having to join him. Of course he did. Now it makes sense.

Lately I have been considering how to navigate from here. Thinking of transferring or retiring, but neither one is realistic. Thinking of what you have said about just leave, just do it. I started praying about it – laying out all the outrageous unbelievable truth about my situation. Not talking to anyone but God and LF. Thinking now about what you have written here about the journey.

The spath husband received a letter last month about all his car accidents – he’s about to lose his insurance at least and maybe his license. He blew it off of course. But it got me talking to my public health colleagues and I got to thinking about his father – a spath who went into early dementia. Light bulb moment !! The past 2 years, he has been more ADHD and impulsive than usual. I’ve been working through all the signs and bingo – early dementia – he’s been “lost” twice in familiar surroundings, had 3 public meltdowns the past few months and been confused about simple procedures.

The really weird thing about the twist in the journey now is that I’m seeing his mask slip more and more but SO IS EVERYONE ELSE. Same thing happened with his father. Of course everyone is blaming his behavior on the dementia, but I know better. So my journey is about to get easier in some ways – people tend to accept “dementia” when they would never get “sociopath.”

I have no idea where this is going – but I’m okay. The most precious gift from this journey is that I can sleep now – really sleep. Never had that opportunity in my life.

I’m about to turn 58 and feel like I have been “wandering in the wilderness for 40 years.” I like that metaphor – not hopeless but just lost for a long time.

Thank you – bless you.

Ox Drover

Dear OpalRose, I am so glad that my ramblings have given you comfort…my Rolodex is very thin now…I didn’t realize how many of my relation-shiiats were dysfunctiiional and abusive. I think we have been in them so long that we accept them as “just the way it IS”

A DRAMA-FREE life will allow you to sleep for sure. And yes, the dementia will let his mask slip as his short term memory goes bad. Unfortunately many men with dementia become VIOLENT so watch your step. They loose their impulse control and become very enraged.

You may not yet be in the “promised land” but I can guarrentee that when you get away from him, you will sleep even better.

God bless you Opal Rose, just keep on praying and ACT on the good sense God is opening your eyes to see.

OpalRose

Thanks Oxy – (((hugs))) to you

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