A few weeks ago, Lovefraud published a letter from “Kay” —This was all about him and all about what he needed. Kay has written again, with Part 2 of her story.
It’s Kay, I am back with more memories I uncovered which were hidden in my subconscious about this sociopath. I hope this helps Lovefraud readers once again. I have taken the time to re-read some of his emails, all of them actually, trying to piece together an otherwise really, really Long Lie which consumed one-and-a-half years of my life.
Here is one of his emails where he LIES about everything he feels… WARNING — There are TRIGGERS here. I am sure you some of you have heard some or all of this before….
Like I told you the other day I don’t know what it is about you that drives me crazy.. And I don’t want to know.. I just never want it to end.. I love the way you make me feel.. You bring happiness to my life and peace to my soul.. In you I have found my destiny.. My joy.. My love of my life… My bestfriend.. My lover.. My everything.. Your love makes me feel like I’m on top of the world… You are like a drug to me… I can’t get enough of you and your love… I now understand why you sometimes acted the way you did with me.. Baby I am sorry from the bottom of my heart.. That I did that to us.. I will never take you for granted ever again.. Your my world.. Your my everything… And I live you with all my heart… Your an amazing woman and mother… And you’ll be an amazing wife… And I want to be everything that you need and want and desire in your life for ever and ever… I wouldn’t change anything in my life because it has lead me to you…
I love you baby…
Please note ALL THE ABOVE IS A LIE. There was no veracity to anything said in the above e-mail to me. This was his way of “voicing” what he knew I wanted to hear. I was never his best friend, the love of his life, he apologizes only to do it again, he says he will never take me for granted, he left me three weeks after this email was written. He left me once his ex-wife started to suspect something was going on. He quickly flew the coop. He had no intentions of staying with me ever. I was a pawn in his chess game. Only I was smarter than he counted on. I called him on it.
It has come to surface that he was, in fact, leading his ex-wife and me on at the same time. One of my friends casually drove by his home only to see his former wife’s car there just one week after our relationship was over. She was warned. We took the time to warn her. Anonymously, but we did. She is well aware of this behavior and continues to return to this relationship. He is her problem now. I have moved on but continue to heal from this lie. It was a really long lie that I believed. The whole relationship was a lie. I have always taken great pride in my intelligence but I was fooled.
The longer you stay, the longer the lie lives. Delete yourself from the lie.
I share this with you because strength comes with knowledge of the damage these sociopaths can cause. We believe the lies. I believed everything he said to me. Everything.
I tried to post a link, but had no success. If interested, google the word ,”incubus”. Very interesting if you look at it in a psychological way and not a religious way…although that might be interesting too.
C G Jung has a concept of the “animus” that is similar. Hope that some of you take a look at it and tell me what you think.
Actually,you get better resultsif you google , “incubus or sucubus”..anincubusis a male demon and a sucubus is female…If you just type in “incobus” you get alot of information on a rock band by thatname…not my intention.
I especially like the image of a featherless chicken with a hole in it’s head. LOL. This is from Wikpedia, I think.
O.M.G!!! sounds just like the P….and preying on women who are “asleep” for me means “In Denial”
BulletProof, “they” are the ultimate in being an abomination to God.
(6) For to be carnally minded {is} death; but to be spiritually minded {is} life and peace. (7) Because the carnal mind {is} enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be. (8) So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God.
Romans 8:6-8
(8) For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.
Galatians 6:8
Enough said.
Peace.
The S used to tell me to call him if I woke up in the middle of the night. It let him know I was thinking about him as much as he was thinking of me. Barf! What he was really doing was preying on women as they slept. Up all night on the singles sites picking out his next victim. I guess me calling him gave him a sense of power in knowing where my thoughts were while he was screwing me over.
Now, let me go back to my happy thoughts on the final frontier. 🙂
Omg!! You guys! Husband spath mentioned a couple of times that he liked it when when women wanted to go to sleep and weren’t really in the mood. That coupled with the rape comments and the porn, just really are creeping me out right now!
I slept with an incubus!!!!
Kim and Wini,
The incubus idea has basis in truth. One reason why God was able to see Earth go through the flood was because they had all become corrupt as a result of interaction with fallen angels ( demons ) and women. Google notes on the Nephilim and read that. These are the spirits now held in chains of darkness whom Jesus went first to see to proclaim he is risen. There were some giants after the flood as well like Goliath. Their whole purpose was to stop Christ from coming and fulfilling his mission. That is another reason why God seemed harsh in wanting to eliminate some of those Cananite races out altogether. They were literally demons who were giants as well.
Teacher123,
Where do we get that history of demonology from? I know there are certain excluded texts (apocrypha), etc. But, there’s no extensive mentioning of demons, their order, history, etc in the old testament… so where does it come from???
Purewaters,
In Genesis 6 they are called the sons of God which is used several other times in the Bible as angels or spirits. One reason we misinterpret the Bible is because we don’t allow it to define itself. For instance the sin of Ham and his curse seems harsh if his only crime was to see his mother naked, but he uncovered his mothers nakedness is a polite way of saying he slept with his mother. The phrase uncover their nakedness is used in this manner on other occasions. Yet almost every sermon preached about Ham says he only saw his mother naked because that is what it says literally.
I think it was his FATHER’s nakedness he uncovered, and my interpretation was that (for what it is worth) is the old man was drunk which the scripture says and passed out naked, and instead of having compassion on his father in that situation, and putting a garment over him, he stood there and scorned the old man kind of in a (paraphrase) “you’re not so hot old man, look at you now” ATTITUDE and came out and TOLD his two brothers about it. The other sons, because they loved and cared for their father, walked backwards so they couldn’t see what Ham had seen, and covered the father with a blanket held between them.
The sin of Ham’s was LACK OF RESPECT for their father.
You will find the story in Genesis 9:21-27 Noah was so angry that he “disinherited” both Ham and Ham’s sons and their descendants.