A few weeks ago, Lovefraud published a letter from “Kay” —This was all about him and all about what he needed. Kay has written again, with Part 2 of her story.
It’s Kay, I am back with more memories I uncovered which were hidden in my subconscious about this sociopath. I hope this helps Lovefraud readers once again. I have taken the time to re-read some of his emails, all of them actually, trying to piece together an otherwise really, really Long Lie which consumed one-and-a-half years of my life.
Here is one of his emails where he LIES about everything he feels… WARNING — There are TRIGGERS here. I am sure you some of you have heard some or all of this before….
Like I told you the other day I don’t know what it is about you that drives me crazy.. And I don’t want to know.. I just never want it to end.. I love the way you make me feel.. You bring happiness to my life and peace to my soul.. In you I have found my destiny.. My joy.. My love of my life… My bestfriend.. My lover.. My everything.. Your love makes me feel like I’m on top of the world… You are like a drug to me… I can’t get enough of you and your love… I now understand why you sometimes acted the way you did with me.. Baby I am sorry from the bottom of my heart.. That I did that to us.. I will never take you for granted ever again.. Your my world.. Your my everything… And I live you with all my heart… Your an amazing woman and mother… And you’ll be an amazing wife… And I want to be everything that you need and want and desire in your life for ever and ever… I wouldn’t change anything in my life because it has lead me to you…
I love you baby…
Please note ALL THE ABOVE IS A LIE. There was no veracity to anything said in the above e-mail to me. This was his way of “voicing” what he knew I wanted to hear. I was never his best friend, the love of his life, he apologizes only to do it again, he says he will never take me for granted, he left me three weeks after this email was written. He left me once his ex-wife started to suspect something was going on. He quickly flew the coop. He had no intentions of staying with me ever. I was a pawn in his chess game. Only I was smarter than he counted on. I called him on it.
It has come to surface that he was, in fact, leading his ex-wife and me on at the same time. One of my friends casually drove by his home only to see his former wife’s car there just one week after our relationship was over. She was warned. We took the time to warn her. Anonymously, but we did. She is well aware of this behavior and continues to return to this relationship. He is her problem now. I have moved on but continue to heal from this lie. It was a really long lie that I believed. The whole relationship was a lie. I have always taken great pride in my intelligence but I was fooled.
The longer you stay, the longer the lie lives. Delete yourself from the lie.
I share this with you because strength comes with knowledge of the damage these sociopaths can cause. We believe the lies. I believed everything he said to me. Everything.
Hi, Chic! No, the term “Sheila” is quite old fashioned now, and because Im a migrant,{well, hell, we all are really!I wouldnt be called that. Its sort of a country , affectionate term, more a pick up line.No, its not offensive at all!
Hey, Chic, I used to be a werewolf, but Im OK now, ow ow ow ow!!!{Howling at the Moon}.
Love, gem,XX
blue eyes, OMG, i am the facebook stalker!!!!
i tell myself it’s sick and i shouldn’t be looking at
his business, or his family and friends too! A Big Family.
Now i found out he only lives 1 mile away from me
instead of 2 miles. More than i need to know.
it’s on a busy street. a street i drive on often!
made me wonder what people would do 100 years ago,
they would never see the person again or know where they went.
it’s so weird. i feel like i am doing it with a cold heart,
but it’s wrong, i’m a freak!!!! somebody make me stop!
i can’t help myself! i’m melting, melting!!!!
i guess i’m not even half over this.
Oh, and the lonliness… thats what half my posts are about!
i can’t stand it, i write and write about it, or i used to
until i figured everyone was sick of hearing me say
the same thing over and over and over and over.
the isolation… i need a job, i am doing the volunteer thing,
that gets me out of the house and i enjoy it.
the ex spath boyfriend stopped by again yesterday.
i figured out that he just stops by to see if he’s
gonna get lucky… NOT.
why else would he be bugging me? i can’t ‘loan” him
money anymore (because he never paid it back Doh!!!!)
this is after i told him never to call me or come by again.
then he said he is “giving me space” HAHA
i’d like to give him outer space!! a trip to mars!!
He told me last Sept that his mother had died,
and now she lives with his brother!!!!
It’s a miracle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i didn’t say anything, just gave him more rope.
i refuse to slide backward into his pit of excrement.
sh*t would have been a better word there
his pit of sh*t… hahahahahahahahahahaha!!
can’t the man figure out i don’t want anything to do with him?
i have told him 10X. what a spath.
gem, ok, next time we’ll all go out and howl at the moon!
but we’ll have to give you an extra days notice
since you are on the other side of the planet!!!
You can howl first and then send it over here!! haha!
werewolf… there wolf !!!! (from Young Frankenstein).
I like Sheila, it’s pretty!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mvSPBu7ajuA
Chic, Ive been there too, stalking FB to find pics of the Grandkids Im forbidden to see. YOUR HUMAN, thats all,weve all been there!
Now, take a deep breath, BREATH,
and repeat after me,
“Im a good, worthwhile person.”
I have friends who love me.”
{we all do, even if you cant see us}.
This too shall pass!
I only have to make it till tomorrow morning, and tomorrow will be BETTER!
Now, make yourself a hot chocolate, run a bath with lots of bubbles, break open the champagne youve been saving for a special occasion. THIS IS the special occasion!
Now, order a pizza,
maybe the delivery boy will be cute, and who knows, he may come FREE with the Pizza!LOL!!
BIG HUGGS!!and Love, Mama gem.XX
And, by the way, Chic, get rid of the Shabby. You are SO not shabby, you are SPECIAL!!!
Mama gem.XX
Howsa bout “Frenchchic? Now Thats special!!
gem, i know!! it’s crazy!
i wish that this technology was not available
or at least that they would block their info!
Jeez, if somebody looked up my FB page
they wouldn’t be able to see a thing!!!
don’t these people have a brain?
i have looked up other ex’s also.
is there a support group for this addiction?
i’ll give that cute delivery boy a lesson
he won’t soon forget! hahhahaha
that’s after i check his id to see if he’s over 18. haha
i am going to STOP looking at FB,
it’s not helping me heal.
Tres Chic !!!!
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Hi Shabbychic it’s the worst thing for me to do, have a look at what the P is up to…he is very public too and easy to track…..i’d feel pathetic…like I had violated my moral standards…but my moral standards have been violated already, I just didnt know it….so, it really affirmed for me what a moron he was, to see him flirting, chatting up women, I could even get into a forum where he was chatting…I drew the line at chatting back and pretending I was someone…no…not stooping…I was panicked…how could I tell these women how dangerous he was..without exposing myself!! it’s a terrible bind. Now I think less and less….and I aspire to total wiping clear..psychically to physically….if I can save myself then that ‘s enough for me…for now…I know he will do terrible damage again…it’s inevitable…I feel helpless to protect others
Henry dear, I hope you are feeling better. I want you to know that I tried the ant-depressant thing when I was younger too-in nursing school but I just felt very strange on them-like my personality was gone and I felt numb and bland and I could focus or concentrate. I went right off them and just found some extracurriculars activities that made me happy. I heard that it is really hard to be gay in Oklahoma. Do you have to stay there?
I have decided to leave New Orleans when my lease is up in January. The city is dead-except for the Saints. I got to see them have a winning season last year-including winning the Superbowl-( a dream). There isn’t anything to look forward to. The jobs are bad in my field and it will be hard to change to my new one because the cost of living is so high. It’s time for me to go.
bulletproof – FB is the devil… as we say. But it is what helped my friends and I piece together the fact that he was playing his ex-wife and I at the same time. It was way too public. My profile is completely private. But yes it should not be available for us in order for us to heal. I think it is hard to see certain things or read certain things. The ex’s profile is now private and my friends can no longer view her updates etc.
He is a loser and that is what it is.