A few weeks ago, Lovefraud published a letter from “Kay” —This was all about him and all about what he needed. Kay has written again, with Part 2 of her story.
It’s Kay, I am back with more memories I uncovered which were hidden in my subconscious about this sociopath. I hope this helps Lovefraud readers once again. I have taken the time to re-read some of his emails, all of them actually, trying to piece together an otherwise really, really Long Lie which consumed one-and-a-half years of my life.
Here is one of his emails where he LIES about everything he feels… WARNING — There are TRIGGERS here. I am sure you some of you have heard some or all of this before….
Like I told you the other day I don’t know what it is about you that drives me crazy.. And I don’t want to know.. I just never want it to end.. I love the way you make me feel.. You bring happiness to my life and peace to my soul.. In you I have found my destiny.. My joy.. My love of my life… My bestfriend.. My lover.. My everything.. Your love makes me feel like I’m on top of the world… You are like a drug to me… I can’t get enough of you and your love… I now understand why you sometimes acted the way you did with me.. Baby I am sorry from the bottom of my heart.. That I did that to us.. I will never take you for granted ever again.. Your my world.. Your my everything… And I live you with all my heart… Your an amazing woman and mother… And you’ll be an amazing wife… And I want to be everything that you need and want and desire in your life for ever and ever… I wouldn’t change anything in my life because it has lead me to you…
I love you baby…
Please note ALL THE ABOVE IS A LIE. There was no veracity to anything said in the above e-mail to me. This was his way of “voicing” what he knew I wanted to hear. I was never his best friend, the love of his life, he apologizes only to do it again, he says he will never take me for granted, he left me three weeks after this email was written. He left me once his ex-wife started to suspect something was going on. He quickly flew the coop. He had no intentions of staying with me ever. I was a pawn in his chess game. Only I was smarter than he counted on. I called him on it.
It has come to surface that he was, in fact, leading his ex-wife and me on at the same time. One of my friends casually drove by his home only to see his former wife’s car there just one week after our relationship was over. She was warned. We took the time to warn her. Anonymously, but we did. She is well aware of this behavior and continues to return to this relationship. He is her problem now. I have moved on but continue to heal from this lie. It was a really long lie that I believed. The whole relationship was a lie. I have always taken great pride in my intelligence but I was fooled.
The longer you stay, the longer the lie lives. Delete yourself from the lie.
I share this with you because strength comes with knowledge of the damage these sociopaths can cause. We believe the lies. I believed everything he said to me. Everything.
it’s swelling pretty bad going to walmart to get me some bynadril..
hens you may need antibiotics. go to a clinic. i swole up like crazy and it WASN’T a histamine reaction – but an infection.
HENS – ANTIBIOTICS!!!
thought i’d repeat that just in case i didn’t say it loud enough 🙂
blue eyes, thank you very much for sharing your experiences. I think that my not working is contributing to my sitting around and thinking about him too much. When I’m busy, I don’t think about him at all!! He hardly ever posts anything on FB, it’s more a family thing, so why am I looking at them? I feel a deep void in my life also, but for me I think I would be happy with more friends and a job, I don’t do well with relationships!
You do have a very analytical mind! You can really think things out well !!! I’ve never bothered to be like that when I was younger, I’m more like that now since I did have to take a hard look at myself (which I didn’t want to do). So thanks again for sharing what you have learned and figured out.
hens, yes, as one said, a clinic sounds like a good idea right now. I do hope you are feeling better. I have a little wasp nest on my front porch, sometimes 8 or 9 wasps on it, should I knock it off with a stick or just leave it alone?
shabby-I would get some of that wasp spray that sprays really far. Can you douse them from the door of the house. I used to spray them hard from the doorway and run inside, close the door, and look out the window and watch them die!
E72, great idea, I could shoot at them
from the front door and run inside,
that would work!!!!
(as long as I don’t trip and fall, LOL)
I gotta see this!
🙂
Hens….you okay darlen?????
Since willies were mentioned above, I am going to lighten things up a bit by coming clean and telling a willie story.
Some details of the story I changed a bit to either keep things anonymous, or to spare me some embarrassment. This is one of them.
Ok, I said one of the many bizarre aspects of my story is that I actually “met” Jamie online before I met him in person. While this is true, here are the true details. In early 2008, I was very stressed by work related anxiety. I was looking at too much porn and while doing so, I saw this video of a guy, whose willie looked exactly like a smaller, uncircumcised version of mine.
I watched the video more intrigued than aroused, since the guy was not exactly porn star material. On top of his small willie, he had no body; however, a brief glimpse of his face made me think there was a cuteness to this guy. In fact, I saved the video. He posted several others and he became sort of a mascot for me. More important, he changed my focus of attraction, away from guys with cut bodies and better endowment, towards this person whom I viewed as “the guy next door.”
When I met Jamie, I decided to clean up my act a bit. I deleted some online accounts and trashed a bunch of porn. I remember looking at the “next door guy’s” video and apologizing for deleting him. I remember saying to myself, “sorry guy, I think you are kinda cute, but you gotta go…”
When I found Jamie’s profile, the named sounded very familiar to me, so by Googling it I found his Xtube profile. Jamie was “the guy next door.” Talk about WTF???
Shabby-I used to kill them that way all the time. I love to shoot at them.
Henry-how’s your arm? You gotta tell us what’s going on!