Society Blames the Victim Instead of the Psychopath – I’m Sick of It!

I am not sure why I am still shocked when people choose to blame the psychopath’s victim.  I have heard that this is normal from others who have suffered from an encounter with psychopath, but I still get a bit shocked each time it happens to me.  From friends, to family, to the courts, to complete strangers — people seem to want to find something wrong with me to somehow better explain to themselves how I ended up being fooled by my psychopath ex.  It has been happening so long that sometimes I find myself wondering there is something wrong with me that made me ignore the red flags and believe the completely fantastic story he was telling me.

The Judgements:

This week alone, I have experienced both friends and family trying to psycho analyze me and question how I ended up with such a monster as the father of my son.  I am not sure how to respond to people when they ask me absurd questions or decide that it was somehow my fault that I ended up being conned by Luc.  Here are some of the things I have heard over the past year (the first two were said just this week):

1)   “CQ, really”¦how did this happen?  What were you thinking?  I mean, please don’t feel as if I am blaming you”¦but how did you not see this coming?”  –  An old friend

2)  ”I know what happened”¦.I think CQ must like to be controlled by an abusive man.”  –  A family member (behind my back)

3)  ”Let’s be honest”¦you wanted a bad boy”¦so you are now getting what you asked for and deserve.  My daughter, who is your age, would never be in this situation because she doesn’t like bad boys.  She is marrying a man who wears suits and collared shirts.”  –  My Lawyer

4)  ”You are not without fault here CQ, what you saw in this man”¦well, it must have been fairy dust”¦and now the fairy dust has disappeared and you are going to have to deal with him for at least the next 18 years.”  –  The Judge in our Custody War

5)  ”You didn’t have a problem with him touching you, so you shouldn’t be so bothered that he is now touching your son.”

–  Family member

My Reality:

The hardest thing for people to understand, it seems, is how a person can be conned by someone who is so clearly dysfunctional.  My response to that is, “when a person’s full time job is to learn everything about you — your hopes, dreams, weaknesses — in order to exploit and con you — you will likely end up conned.”  I have used the analogy before of the frog and the boiling water and in this case I can’t think of another analogy that would prove my point any better.  Psychopaths control the boiling water.  They know that if they threw their victims into a pot of boiling water, most people would jump right out screaming and cursing at them.  Instead, they slowly bring the water to boil with the intension of burning their victims alive.

Every time I walk into court, I feel like I am holding my heart inside of my chest with my bear hands.  This process, this war, with Luc has torn me apart from the inside out.  Luc’s boiling water effectively ripped me apart, but sometimes I feel as if the judgement and misunderstanding I receive from those I love (and society at large) is worse.  I went from being a beautiful, self confident, intelligent, and successful woman — to a victim of a completely misunderstood abuse.  Luc burned me alive, but society continues to blame me as if I willingly jumped into a burning fire along side satan.

The Future:

I want my son to know his mama as the woman I was — but wiser.  I dread the day when my son might join society and make judgements about what happened with his father.  Will he understand how his father used my kindness against me?  Will he understand why I tried to hold the relationship together even when it seemed clear to the rest of the world that it was a hopeless situation?  Will he understand why I fought so hard to protect him from a man I once trusted?

It’s easy to think about all the horrible things Luc is and ignore the things that attracted me to this man.  While many of the things that attracted me to Luc were not real (most of them were completely fake actually), there are good qualities in Luc.  (Yes, you read that correctly)  Despite the fact that my family refuses to see anything of Luc in baby boy, this is not the stance I will take as baby boy’s mother.  Luc wasn’t born evil — he made choices.  He took his talents and used them for evil.  For example, being charming is not a bad thing if you don’t use it to manipulate and control others.  Being a good actor isn’t a bad thing as long as you use it on stage to entertain instead of to lie and cheat.

I love baby boy for everything that he is and that means that I accept the fact that he is the product of what now feels like a violent emotional rape.  I refuse to make my son feel bad for carrying half of the psychopath’s genes and I also refuse to lie to him.  So while I kick myself every day for not paying attention to the now obvious red flags of Luc’s psychopathy, and I suffer through the constant judgements I receive from others, I would do it all over again for baby boy.  I didn’t choose what Luc really is — but I will choose baby boy every day for the rest of my life.

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Fight4wr and Blue, you won’t be aware perhaps of the tragedy.Cappuccinoqueen’s child was killed by the psychopath she discusses in this article.

Tea Light,

I was not aware that her child was killed by him. I am once again, astounded at the evil spath’s perpetrate. I am deeply saddened.

Cappuccinoqueen, my heart goes out to you. I am so very sorry for your loss. I apologize for my ignorance of the entire story. I can only say that I pray some action from above will right the horrific wrong that was done to your child and you. I do pray he is in prison, or gone in some dark cave, where he belongs.


How are you blue? Are you being left in peace by the ex? Lovely to see you again.

Hi Tea Light,

I have been left alone since the last contact, ~ 2 months ago. I have reached a place where I accept that he never felt anything pure or good for me. I have also setttled in my mind that I did not love him, I may have loved the man I thought he was, the one who so powerfully drew me into his trap….but not who he really was. That was a tough hurdle for me. Seeing him with rose glasses removed, not letting my longing for the fake person, tell me what was real.
I have up days, down days and sometimes just ok. I am trying to count my blessings. I still have alot of damage to unravel. I have committed to not dating. (my brain is still in cog-diss, my spelling is still questionable LOL ) I am sad still, but not for the same reasons. I am still sad inside for having been used by another human being. I no longer think everyone on this earth deserves my open and free love and trust. I am determined to learn how to close up my heart, soul, mind and life with exception to only those who have proven thier character and worthiness of my time and attention and love.
How are you Tea Light? Forgive the lack of recall, but how long has your experience been over? Did you have children with him? Are you safe and happy today? : ) It is another sign of the tunnel I have lived in, that as much as I have read here, I cannot keep the histories straight. I was also totally consumed with grief when I first found LF. Very little memory recall. Probably part of PTSD, LOL Uhhh, I Do Not Recall ( IDNR), is a standard response for me in many situations. Where are the car keys? IDNR Do I work today? IDNR
I hope you are past this part, if you ever visited IDNR land, and are at peace! I hope you are well, and I thank you for being here, for all the times you have reached out to me as I balled over my computer keys. I recall that !!! : )
Hugs and love and HEALING to all.
Donna, may God bless you for building this place and for connecting another blogger with me. We have become friends, it was a blessing. I may have become his 2-day/week girl, if not for you and LF : )


Blue, I’m doing ok. My abuser was the one who lied to me saying he was seperated. Lovebombed me for 6 months he lives in another euro country. He was living with his second wife and 6 year old all the time. He and his mother told me he was divorcing. I went on holiday with him. He assaulted me, I broke it off, he stalked me, I came here January having a breakdown, suicidal on occasion. I’k much better now. He continues to stalk but I am much more resilient these days and my appetite planning for the future and sense of identity are all coming back. Love to you.

Bluemosaic and Tea Light:

Thank you for sharing. Tea Light, Thank you for sharing even more horrific details about what happened to her child. Thank you, Cappaccino Queen for your courage.

When I hear your stories, and of your resilience, it helps me today.

Love to you too, Tea Light,
I am happy for you that you are safe and your appetite for a happy future is coming back, along with your identity. It is unreal how this disrupts our indentity so much. I have struggled with that alot too. I do not feel the same inside. I was on phone with a close friend today, and he made me promise to look myself in the mirror and tell myself that I love and accept myself. The Saturday night episodes-skits parodying self love, came to mind. LOL!! 2 years ago, I was a happy confident woman. Big change. Time, right Tea Light? I am giving myself time. Wish I could do my time in a cave with 100 really good books, a big pillow and a teddy bear : )
But I know I won’t heal in a cave, so I come out once in awhile!


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