A few days ago, Bill Zeller, a 27-year-old graduate student at Princeton University, died. The cause: suicide. The reason: He was tormented due to being repeatedly raped as a child.
Zeller left a 4,000-word suicide note that eloquently explained the effect that the devastation had on his life. There is a link to it in this article:
Princeton student kills self over rape as child, on CBSNews.com.
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Lesson, I can relate to a lot of what Bill wrote also. I’ve spent most of my life running from that darkness. I don’t want to imagine what it’s like to live in it, as Bill did. Keep going, Lesson, keep at it. You aren’t “permanently tainted.” You deserve much love and peace.
CHICA! please call me in the coming days! you don’t answer the phone and i have lost your postal address. Happy new year’s Mujyer!! besos.
LL,
Are you OK tonight?
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Hey ONE,
How are you?
notcrazee – good. tired. off to sleep. night night.
Sweet dreams one! i know you are working hard right now! get your rest.
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ONE–te llamare esta semana. Phone is unplugged, too depressed to answer it these days. Espero que estes bien, mujer.
Hola SC, ah, it’s not bilingual yet! Or make that “todavia no es bilingue!” Sorry ’bout that, SC!
Sorry CAmom!!!
I’ve known and cared about two people who have experienced what Bill had and more. I just have to wonder whether Bill might have chosen to trust had he had parents who loved him. Toward the end of his letter, he speaks of their fundamentalist beliefs system with all it’s harsh judgments and black/white mentality.
He certainly didn’t have a good example of what unconditional love is to draw upon from his parents. Had he had one person who showed him regard and warmth and was able to demonstrate real compassion during all his formative years, he would have had a road map to find his way to trust someone at some point in his life.
Isn’t that what Jesus’ life and teachings stand for? Compassion and love?
What a tragedy to exist in a prison without walls.
Rest in peace, Bill.