A few days ago, Bill Zeller, a 27-year-old graduate student at Princeton University, died. The cause: suicide. The reason: He was tormented due to being repeatedly raped as a child.
Zeller left a 4,000-word suicide note that eloquently explained the effect that the devastation had on his life. There is a link to it in this article:
Princeton student kills self over rape as child, on CBSNews.com.
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super chic
Very sad.
HeavenRoaming
It is true the pain of abuse will last a life time if you are unable to settle the score. If justice is done and you are even then there is no pain .
Ox Drover
I agree that we should let those people we love know how much we love and value them, but if a person is emotionally injured, sometimes they will discount those affirmations of love and not be able to receive them. That is part of the damage that abuse does to people I think is that when people affirm their love for those injured souls, they are not able to fully accept that love. Abuse kills the ability for some people to accept real love or to value themselves, ending up in low self esteem or self hate that ends in suicide or “living death.” I’m not sure which is worse the suicide or the “living death.” They are both horrible.
skylar
Oxy, I think you are right.
Bill Zeller said, “I feel an evil inside me. An evil that makes me want to end life. I need to stop this. I need to make sure I don’t kill someone, which is not something that can be easily undone.”
Those emotions cannot be undone by just being loved or treated well. In fact, the evil feelings were intensified by relationships.
candy
Heaven – there is no real justice for a spath in my book. If he owes you money you won’t get it etc. They do not ‘play’ fair so how can you win against a cheat?
The best we can hope for is that they leave us alone and that we walk (or crawl) away with some dignity and sanity.
I think the level of abuse we feel diminishes with time but it’s like a scar – it never really goes away.
The best we can hope for is to find a place in the corner of our mind for all of the cr*p, and keep it as a timely reminder and a resource to be used in the future to protect ourself should another spath cross our path.
HeavenRoaming
candy what you said is so true but i feel if there are consequences of their actions ex they end in jail it helps ease the pain
hens
Has anyone ever came upon an old box or cleaned out a closet and wondered if maybe ‘he’ left a note or a card for me to find year’s later? Some little something to say he cared? Maybe a ” I didn’t mean too hurt you”?
one/joy_step_at_a_time
we all have our denial fantasies hens.
hens
ok I needed that Onestepper’s Thanks..back outside – gonna take the weiners for a drive..
one/joy_step_at_a_time
do you put them in buns to take them out?