A 24-year-old guy described himself in an Internet forum: He doesn’t feel emotion, is an excellent liar, becomes bored quickly, and experiences an adrenalin rush when deceiving or angering someone else. He asks, is he a sociopath?
I’d answer yes. The post is an interesting insight into how a disordered young man perceives himself and others.
Read Self-diagnosing sociopathy on the Dr. Robert forum.
MoonDancer
Gaetan Dugas was his name – just google – (patient zero aids )-
lesson learned
I don’t know how many of you have been following my school story, but for those who have, my appeal was APPROVED today.
I”M SO EXCITED about this.
I have about nine months left and I graduate and now I can complete it without this obstacle in the way.
I’m so excited to move forward with my life!
thank you for good thoughts and/or prayers!
I wish you all well!
LL
petite
Hi LL,
congratulations,
is this school or college ?.
go for it and make the most of this opportunity.
all the best
petite
behind_blue_eyes
hens;
The “Patient Zero” flight attendant angle plays into my mess. Once I became strongly convinced my x-spath was HIV+ (and a flight attendant) I could perhaps understand why he might not want to be so open with that. OTOH, you should not be dating somebody if you can’t or won’t openly talk about it.
Also, at the time anyone HIV+ could be barred from entering the USA.
This is why I feel he was not comfortable with me coming to hotels he was staying at — fear I might snoop around while he was sleeping and find meds….
Back_from_the_edge
lesson learned: I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU THAT your life is moving forward!!!!! YAY! 🙂 xxoo Blessings and best wishes to you!
It seems at times that we just aren’t seeing or going to be seeing any light in this adventure, whatsoever, until moments such as what just happened to you, renews our faith and hope. Thank you so much for sharing!
I wonder how many of you woke up this morning, as I have just done, feeling empty and lonesome; ruminating inside our mind and thinking: “If only I had one more chance to explain it to him/her, they would understand and the sky would open, bells would ring, doves would fly and we would live happily ever after.
THEY JUST DONT UNDERSTAND….I need to make him/her understand before I go….
Yah, right; and pigs can fly too.
I made a mental list of all the ‘wrong’ things that happened and all the ‘right’ things that happened and I can see a huge difference in the two. Listen to me: “IT” tried to purposely kill me and I am ruminating and still trying to grab a hold of this.
My psychologist said: “it is like being in a state of shock and locking yourself into avoidance behaviors (ie: ruminating; stressing; crying; etc) to avoid the pressure of dealing with it all and trying to make some sense out of it all. It can’t be healed as an ‘event’; it is a ‘process’ and you can’t ‘fool’ the process.”
Once you educate yourself as to what has truly happened to you, you need to read and research and find out as much as you can about the sociopath because it will help you move forward once you grasp the full significance of that type of personality among us and that it has happened to YOU.
We have a tendency to believe what we hear. Not so much what we see. Have you noticed that?
They conditioned us into believing the lie we were being fed but they were just mirroring back to us what we WANTED to hear and feel. They didn’t feel the same because they can’t. They are acting. They do this to gain whatever it is they want from us. I know this sounds harsh and battering but it really isn’t. To this very moment, I only wish his life well. I do. Even after realizing that he tried to kill me. I know he is a sick person but does that make MY LIFE of any less significance? I think not.
That was one of the last things I told him when I ended it:
“I only wish you well…” I just bet that USUALLY people don’t say things like that to “IT”. I would imagine that most people he runs into end up hating and despising him for the way he is and wishing him ILL WELL. No, don’t get trapped up into that ‘unconditional’ attitude when you care about someone because it is NEVER returned and only abused and laughed at.
I am so over this. Not entirely but almost. I mean, the truths are pretty undeniable; aren’t they? And I think: “wouldn’t it be wonderful if the heavens opened up and the Angels came down from the sky and trumpets played and cherubs danced on the breeze and over the horizon, I see my Knight in Shining Armor, my best friend, coming on his steed and we will live happily ever after.” THAT IS NOT GOING TO EVER HAPPEN. We cannot lie to ourselves FOREVER.
It’s a sad thing but a ‘thing’ that was BROUGHT to our lives; inflicted on our lives. YES: we willingly allowed it in because we believed and trusted. Our trust was misplaced and undeserved. These are the ‘criminal’ minds among us…or at least a majority of them are so. My CARING got me into this ‘life jam’. Imagine that? The one thing we are taught means the most has almost destroyed us.
NC is still in full effect and there has been no sightings in a few weeks now. NOT A PEEP. This is a great thing. 🙂 Ahhhhh…..BEAUTIFUL PEACE and HEALING.
WAY TO GO LESSON LEARNED!!! W.T.G.!!!!!!! xxoo
YOU DESERVE ALL GOOD AND ONLY GOOD THINGS, ALWAYS.
YOU REMEMBER THAT.
*HUGS*
DUPED
Louise
Hens:
Thanks for the info! I figured it must have been in the 80s.
Louise
Hens:
Just Googled it…wow.
Ox Drover
I read a biography of Gaetan and it said that when he was so thin and ugly looking and had sores all over his body he would go to the San Francisco (I think that was where it was) bath houses where it was DARK and have sex with people who were so stoned they really couldn’t even see him…..250 a year (that’s nearly 1 per day) and for how many years? I have read estimates that he had sex with over 2500 before he died, and I read that he KNEW he had “something” that was transmittable sexually (not what, exactly, but something!) and he wanted to infect as many as he could before he died. He surely qualifies as a psychopath if nothing else if that is true.
Louise
Oxy:
That is so beyond sick. UGGHH. How gross and utterly sick to WANT to inflict that on as many men as he could.
behind_blue_eyes
Ox Drover;
They gay world is full of Gaetans even to this day. One reason I believe is that for whatever reason, the are more sociopathic gays than heteros.
Even in gay sex clubs today, there is a “don’t ask, don’t tell” policy regarding HIV and I personally know of, but no longer associate with, several HIV+ individuals who will insertive “bareback” in such situation.