A 24-year-old guy described himself in an Internet forum: He doesn’t feel emotion, is an excellent liar, becomes bored quickly, and experiences an adrenalin rush when deceiving or angering someone else. He asks, is he a sociopath?
I’d answer yes. The post is an interesting insight into how a disordered young man perceives himself and others.
Read Self-diagnosing sociopathy on the Dr. Robert forum.
ElizabethBennett
I meant to type relationshit-got that from Oxy. Hens is totally right. Back in the 90’s in my old town, there was a hetero prostitute that had HIV and was actually convicted for trying to deliberately spread it by having unprotected sex with large amounts of people.
I was stupid for not using condoms with my exspath. That was actually due to the fact that it gave me memories of my sexual assault. That experience was the first sex I ever had and since in happened in that manner, PTSD surrounds it-STILL, since I bottled it up for so long. The guy who did it wore a condom and after that, everything about condoms grossed me out and triggered me-the very FEW times I tried to have sex like 8 years after it happened. My exspath knew about that whole thing and “didn’t want me to be upset”, plus he was afraid of it making his perceived erectile dysfunction worse. Once I started hearing the rumor of his cheating on me, then I started to get that sick feeling-thank GOD I’m negative.
Near
Lizzy: I don’t believe in deleting comments. I think this forum needs those raw comments and feelings, unless it is blatant hate or baiting. I didn’t see anything wrong with it.
Haha, I should have figured Oxy said it. I’m sorry about the memories of your spath incident. It’s weird how those memories drive our actions. Did this incident have anything to do with you becoming gay, or did you already have an interest in the same sex? Sorry for these type of questions. I’m too curious. ^_^
ElizabethBennett
LL–(((((hugs))))) I just saw your post and CONGRATS about your school appeal!! I won mine and you won yours. I know how good that makes you feel!!!
ElizabethBennett
Near-it had nothing to do with me becoming gay at all and I don’t mind answering that. I knew I loved women since I was in 6th grade-but I refused to acknowledge it til my mid 20’s due to the ultra-religious parental figures, particularly N egg donor. I had a huge crush on my 6th grade teacher and I also played around with a girl that year, who was two years older than me.
Near
Lizzy: I thought so, but I had to ask. Thanks for always being so open with me. If you have any questions for me, don’t ever be afraid to ask. ^_^ So since 6th grade. That makes sense. Once again, thanks for sharing.
Lesson Learned: Buddy! I missed your post too until Lizzy brought it up! Congrats!! *huggles* I’m glad you pop in to update us. ^_^
Well, my mom is not happy with my dad at all for the gumball thing. She doesn’t want to even talk to him now! Haha, maybe this will turn out to be the best gift of all. ^_^
ElizabethBennett
Near-good that she doesn’t want to talk to him-maybe he’ll quit popping up.
Man-I am just in the bored, how am I going to get through this day thing. There is nothing to do. I can’t go anywhere or do anything since I’m so BROKE and I guess I can wait around and see if anyone calls in response to all the job applications. I had a good interview last Monday but haven’t heard back yet-I’ll guess they’ll check references and then say DENIED.
MoonDancer
Lizzy go for a walk – clean house – only a boring person can be bored..hugz
ElizabethBennett
I can’t even smoke since my girl snatched my cigarettes last night and ran in the house and locked the door. If I get more she will just take them too cuz she proved to be much faster and sneakier than I thought she was.
Near
Lizzy: I hope, but he pops up whether we want him to or not. I don’t think I’m ever bored. If I have free time I just cruise the Internet, play video games, or read comic books, or watch anime. I’m kinda nerdy that way! 😛
What do you like to do?
ElizabethBennett
Near-I don’t do well stuck at home, plus it’s really hot outside and if I can’t go go something fun then it’s not near as enticing to be outside. I just don’t feel like doing the things I usually do like reading or knitting or listening to music. I’ve been doing that so much. I can’t stand not working. I am supposed to work nites tomorrow night and I am praying that doesn’t get cancelled.
I think starting on Friday I will be volunteering in the homicide cold case division of my police dept, until I can go back to the academy. They also need help in the crisis unit too. If I can do those things when I’m not working then I will be better off-being around cops instead of nurses-I am SO much happier that way.