A 24-year-old guy described himself in an Internet forum: He doesn’t feel emotion, is an excellent liar, becomes bored quickly, and experiences an adrenalin rush when deceiving or angering someone else. He asks, is he a sociopath?
I’d answer yes. The post is an interesting insight into how a disordered young man perceives himself and others.
Read Self-diagnosing sociopathy on the Dr. Robert forum.
Louise
BBE:
That is so sad 🙁 Unfeeling bastards. We are just so giving and they are so mean and just don’t care. Sigh.
So sorry you had to experience that. It is enough to last a lifetime that is for sure.
superkid10
Skylar
Wow, your spath was quite a plotter.
He knew.
SK
behind_blue_eyes
Many of us are left by a spath at an inopportune moment — its because when many of us are at a low, we are no longer of any value to them.
However, in my case there was more than just that. As I have said, I touched too close to the one issue he was hiding the most — his HIV status.
So, my theory is I was of value to him since I had not raised the HIV issue. In fact, there was much to my story at the time that might have led somebody to believe I was HIV+.
I was sick, in retrospect I looked sick, I was not rushing into sex with him. That all changed the night in the hospital when the doctors thought I *might* be HIV+, the implication being up to that point I was not.
I thought I was dumped for very obvious reasons: I was sick and just hit this “reserved” British guy with a bombshell.
In reality, the opposite was true. I got hit with the “bombshell” a couple weeks later…
Louise
BBE:
So when he thought you were HIV+, he got scared and ran. But you think he is HIV+, yeah?
Ox Drover
Dear Aussie girl,
WELCOME BACK!!!! Missed the heck out of you and wondered what the heck was going on in your life. Glad to know you haven’t left us for good….I must know the REST of the the story!
You are going into winter as we have turned into HELL ON EARTH here with heat, storms, but no rain in most places, and too much in others….I am in the spring floods, tornadoes and now summer furnace with NO rain.
Glad you are able to get back to a bit of work! You talked about kids in school, are you a teacher? I had forgotten if I ever knew. CRS.
Well, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Don’t stay gone so long, we miss your sage advice! (((Hugs))) and Love Oxy
behind_blue_eyes
Louise:
Actually the opppsite. I strongly suspect he is HIV+ and was acting on the assumption I might have been, given all my health problems.
Thus, when I told him the doctor thought I might be, the implication was that up to my last test, I was not.
He ran not because he feared HIV, he ran from my honesty.
Ox Drover
You know I read this post on the thread and I am not sure if this guy is “for real” or not….I would almost flip a coin to decide if he is or not.
I have never known of a single narcissist or psychopath (and all Ps are very narcissistic) who was that much into introspection…unless you count Sam Vaknin, and I’m not sure he really is, I think he just fakes it more than internalizes an introspection.
Now, I know my P son thinks he is the smartest person in the world, and IQ-wise, he IS smarter than 99% of people, but emotional intelligence he is not all that bright, I would put him in the the BOTTOM 25% on that one….even though he is able to CON folks I’m not sure he really understands how normal people think. Most people are repulsed by the uncouthness of his mouth and his come on….ditto with my P sperm donor, but when he got very wealthy some would still pander to him because of his money. My P son hasn’t got the street smarts and emotional intelligence to stay out of prison much less make a fortune. LOL
Some psychopaths are pretty high in emotional IQ and in the “love bombing” and manipulation….and can stay focused enough to get an education and to get and maintain a professional career. (Politics any one?) LOL but so many of them are more into low-life, street thugish mooching off others petty con games.
I’m still not sure if this guy is for real or just pulling our legs. He might actually be one, but I don’t think he really CARES if he is or not if that makes any sense.
Louise
BBE:
OK, I get it. Thanks for clarifying that for me!
skylar
Oxy, on the sociopath blog, many times a poster will talk like that, so this post doesn’t seem that unusual. At that age, the spath acknowledges that he is different in a “superior” way to other humans. From reading on the internet, today’s spath can “diagnose himself” or basically figure out that there is a word for what makes him different. That’s why I do actually think he is a spath who is looking for feedback, though not necessarily the feedback he professes to want.
I remember when my troubled niece was 15, right before she ran away from home, she called me. I barely knew her since she’s always lived in a different state, but she felt lost and desperate so she called me. Some of the things she said, were, “What do you think about me?” What do you think of me?” “Do you think I’m Borderline?”
She wanted feedback and her focus was on understanding herself, as seen through other’s eyes because her own narcissism was blocking her ability to see it. So she had to ask. She was asking everyone the same questions.
BTW, she’s better now, but still sort of self-centered.
behind_blue_eyes
Louise;
This is the root of why I have such a hard time with the whole thing. It was all so bizarre, in several ways.
First and foremost, me thinking I lost him because I was honest about HIV, but from the wrong perspective.