By Ox Drover
Today I had an epiphany: I am happy. Really happy. Joyously happy. Exuberantly happy. Why is today different that any other day? Two months ago I was unhappy. Why am I now happy? Nothing much has really changed from two months ago.
I’m a few pounds lighter, but that isn’t what makes me happy, though, I am working on losing some weight. My bank account is quite a bit lighter than it was two months ago, so that isn’t what is making me happy. The psychopaths in my life don’t like me one bit more than they did two months ago. I haven’t found the love of my life riding on a white horse, or even a white donkey.
What is making me happy? Well, today I saw the “Bluebird of Happiness.” Yep, the real honest-to-goodness bright bluebird of happiness. Two Eastern Bluebirds, both males with colors so vibrant that I actually had to get my bird book and look them up to make sure of what I was seeing. Not the dull blue of the bluebirds we normally see in this area, who nest in holes in fence posts or in the boxes people put out for them. These were the true Eastern Bluebirds.
Why did seeing these birds and ascribing them to happiness “make me happy?” Well, I have chosen today to be happy, to look for one thing that would lift my spirits, to make myself feel happy, rather than dwelling on the many things in my life and environment that are not to my liking, or that I would change if I could, but I can’t.
I have chosen today to view those two male Eastern Bluebirds, sitting side by side on the top of a farm implement, and then flying down to my studio window where they see their own reflection and peck at these mirror images of themselves to drive off the images, to select for themselves breeding territory and to defend that territory from those imaginary birds that are trying to take over and claim that happiness and territory for themselves.
The sun is shining today, and the air is crisp and spring-like, and these birds are the harbingers of spring. After all the drab, miserable, wet and cold winter weather we had, the tough times are passing and the world and my spirits are renewing. I have a favorite book called Come Spring that is the story of a pioneer girl in upstate New York, when the U.S. was still a colonial part of the British Empire, and her stories of the terrible winters of her life and the lack of food and warmth and safety were all put aside because she believed that everything would be okay, “Come Spring.”
Well, today with the birth of a little calf and the sighting of two Eastern Bluebirds, my spring is here, and I am going to embrace it. Everything is okay, now that my spring is here. The winter is passed, and today is good.
bulletproof
one step
Thanks for the link about the bio identical hormones I am reading every word up close in a hot sweat, eyes bulging…gasp gasp! unbelievable…I’d …be afraid of combusting on the spot…you know the way they find old people living on their own and there is just a pair of slippers with ash all around it……spontaneous combustion….
one/joy_step_at_a_time
hehe bp – if i hadn’t gotten on to bio hormones, i don’t know what would have happened to me. i was peri menopausal and was hemorrhaging. ended up in hospital having a couple of units of blood infused. and then 2 months to get back on my feet. then about another year before i regained my sense of balance….then i met the spath…bwahahaha…
Ox Drover
Well, my periods were so killer, almost bled to death 7-8 days a month and had PMS from hell, (and a gun!) so I was glad when it was ALL over anyway! So was my family! I wasn’t psychopathic 4 days a month, just PMS-ing! LOL
No medication either and no empathy or sympathy for women for PMS in those days, it really wasn’t even recognized as anything but a “CRAZY WOMAN” Thing!
The high dose BC pills in those days–tried them, couldn’t take them, they made me PMS 30 days a month!
Ah, yes, the joys of womanhood!
Did take estratest (a hormone of estragen and testosterone) I had my uterine removed so could take that, it really did “help” for a while but quit it when they said the hormones weren’t good for anything except hot flashes. I really don’t think it makes any difference if they are “bio-identical” as the ones I took were female hormone from preg horses, so was “natural” in that way. But it might be that you could use them for a while to taper you off so you don’t get the ROLLER COASTER effect with the hormones being stopped?started again by your body.
I think that is basically what they are saying is OK for “now,” but who the heck knows, tomorrow they may say that what they thought was “safe” and “good” today will grow you an extra nose. Who the heck knows? I just try to take the least amount of ANYTHING I can get by without, without my nose falling off in my cereal bowl.
I don’t keep up with all the latest medical stuff since I retired so talk with your doctor and do a bit of research on the net from several different sources. I don’t trust any ONE source.
silvermoon
Weren’t we talking about bluebirds here? Bluebirds to hormomes is a downgrade. but, while we are talking about it, note that the scotch / Irish and scandanavian gene pools esp susceptible to gluten allgery and sleep disorders. One masquerades as so many other things and the other is exacerbated by them.
happy and unhappy places in life are about thoise ups and downs but I wonder how often we realize they have physical drivers.
Like blue birds and hormones?
one/joy_step_at_a_time
oxy – bio-identical hormones and hormones from mares piss couldn’t be further apart. bio-identical is not the same thing as that silly word ‘natural’.
I studied bio identical hormones for 2 years and read many books and spoke to different doctors and people using both pharma and bio identical. And tried both the pharma way and the bio identical way. So, I do actually know, and yes, it does make a difference.
Ox Drover
Dear One-step,
I don’t doubt that they are different, but doesn’t necessarily mean that long term use of the hormones (of ANY kind) is beneficial or at least not harmful to women. Unfortunately too many things (from natural to synthetic) are NOT beneficial and are harmful.
I was reading the other day about how there are “80 zillion” chemicals in use in industry etc and drugs and so on, and they are all being leeched into our water system and lakes (frogs “growing breasts” etc) because most of these drugs, primarily hormones, are leaked into the water system through urine and our cleansing of water for reuse doesn’t take out hormones and drugs etc….but you can’t escape them and since you have multiple sensitivities to things, I am sure you understand. But we’re all going to croak someday anyway. All these health nuts are going to die in PERFECT HEALTH! LOL ROTFLMAO hee hee Look at Jack LaLane nearly 100 and still working out every day and selling juicers on late night TV! LOL
Yea, Silver, the Blue bird of happiness does sort of carp in our cheerios when we hit menopause! But it passes and gets better!!!!
I laugh though, a friend of mine said if you give up booze and cigarettes cause they are not safe, and sex cause it isn’t safe any more either, etc. you don’t live any longer, but it just SEEMS LONGER!!!!! LOL ROTFRLMAO
The bottom line is that I picked good ancestors as far as the length of life is concerned….most of my ancestors lived a long time if they didn’t die in child birth and even had several pre-antibiotic age that lived to be over 100, and many up to 90, so that I did right. I guess with so many of them being Ps and drinking like fish they probably didn’t have much stress! LOL But I’ve managed to live this long WITH the stress because of antibiotics, so thank modern medicine for my survival past 40! Had to have the antibiotics to off set the stress effects of the Ps.
My alcoholic uncle Monster lived to be 80+, his grandfather, an alcoholic beast, lived to be 83! That whole line were ps and lived into 80s unless someone killed them (that happened too). My egg donor is 81 now, p-sperm donor was 80+ and smoked like 4 packs a day of unfiltered—he did work out til he was 70+ though. His father (a non-P) was still doing surgery when he was 77 and all of his brothers, my great uncles were 75-85, when they died and all still active. So I figure unless someone offs me I’ll make it fairly well til I’m 80!
About the worst thing I’ve done is to be so active I’ve got arthritis from WORN OUT joints and smoked off and on since I was 15–but I’ve even quit that. I attribute most of my health to good physical genes! and a nasty attitude now that I have adopted the NO BS rule! LOL
So bring on the blue bird of happiness because I intend to enjoy life until I have them nest in my gray hair! Not gonna sit around and pith and moan too much about what I DON’T have, or what I wish I had done! I’ve done most of it and intend to do some more! Gonna slide up to the pearly gates like a baseball player making home base in the 9th in the World Serieswith the score tied and with 2 outs, giving it all I have got and then some!
kim frederick
Yes, I’ve had some pretty miserable hot flashes, but I can honestly say that since my last period in Dec. of 2007, I have felt better than I had in 10 years. I feel a lot saner, more even keeled, not as emotional, and it really surprises me since I always heard that the hormones get all out of whack, but I think mine were way out of wack during the time I was fertile and ovulating. I really do feel better emotionally.
I gained about 20 pounds though, don’t feel good about that.
Got some silver streaks in my hair, and I’m not the stunner I once was….but, on the up-side, I don’t attract the spaths I once did 🙂 so, life is good for me, at this point, but then again, I think I was hormonally out of sorts for years.
hens
sheesh ~ !!! being a guy and gay aint so bad.
kim frederick
Hey Hens. How do your cockells grow?
hens
kim – too the left.