A spath behind every bush

Hey everyone, I just had a long awaited energy work session this morning. He told me a lot of the fear and negativity I experience is what I absorbed from my stepfather in my childhood. My stepfather was a very bad person. He was apparently abused himself as a child and was like a 7 year old in an adult body taking out all of his anger on His step kids. I absorbed all of it, and the energy worker helped me let some of it go and break the subconscious contracts I made with my stepfather. I definitely feel a little more grounded and lighter, though still feel blocked. He said it would take a few days to process all the stuff, but he feels very confident that I will. I think this is similar to the work Geminigirl has been doing with her energy worker. It seems to help, but dang, this stuff ain’t cheap! He himself is loner like me who was also abused as a child. It really helped me to feel like I’m not so alone, being someone whose path has been to have no family. I cried a lot in the session and sometimes I didn’t even know why I was crying. It just all seemed like release of some sort.

Meantime, I signed up for my second accelerated Spanish class to start next week. I have found a passion to throw myself into, and it is learning that language. I have study groups planned, and the Costa Rica trip coming up where I can practice. I’m pretty excited about all of it. It’s also been fun making new friends in the class. We all seem to have the love of travel in common, and they are all very interesting and happy people. It’s a good balance from all the catty secretaries at work and massage clients whom I can’t open up too much with because they are my clients. I did comment to the energy worker that over the years the type of clients I attract are more evolved and high-energy, and I often wonder why they keep coming back. He said that they keep coming back because they are learning something from me, so therefore I must have something of value to offer them. I never thought of it that way, but maybe I do.

Kim, I’m so glad you are feeling a little better – you are like me in the ability to “change the station” in your mind. Flexibility is such a great thing, isn’t it? If one thing doesn’t work, you can try something else.

For Petite, on the subject of what a man says……..I just wanted to share with you that I’ve heard it all. I’ve had men tell me they were in love with me, then turn around and cheat, then tell me they never really loved me. I have found it best not to pay too much attention to what they say, but to look at their BEHAVIORS. This will tell you if they care or not.