One of Lovefraud’s readers is Joshua Noel Tanner, a young man who is a singer-songwriter. He has personal experience with sociopaths, and has written a song called Old Father Incubus based on his experiences. I found the song to be creative, haunting and accurate. Caution: It includes narration that some readers may find to be triggering.
You can buy the song, and listen to the rest of Joshua’s album, on his band website.
Or, you can listen to it on YouTube.
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MoonDancer
Dupey – I am a hangin. I have a pair of cardinals in a holly bush just outside a window, I have watched the four eggs hatch and now the babies are gettin feathers, talk about dedicated parent’s ~! Things like this make me a happy man, it doesnt take much to enjoy and appreciate life, just like breathing Dupey, it’s a good thing…
Near , Anybody that can copy and paste is a genius to me..
CRS mean’s ‘cant remember shit’……lol
OK back to dancing with the stars – I am hoping that cuban hottie win’s – he melt’s my butter and flop’s my mop ~!
ElizabethBennett
Oxy-if you around here somewhere, I really need to ask you a question. Since you are a nurse like me, but have more experience in years, I am concerned about something. My N uses physical ailments/illness as attempt to get me to come over. I remembered that she did it back in December when I was trying to avoid her. She even did it within the last few months when things were really great and we were getting close.
Example-A few weeks ago the husband of one of her “friends” died of cancer and she was really upset. I spent sometime during that week just holding her because she was “upset”. Several days after that she called me and told me that she was feeling really faint, lightheaded, shaky, and weak in the knees. She thought her blood pressure was low. She said that when she got like that she really needed something cold and asked her if I could go get her some ice cream because she didn’t think she could drive. I agreed. I was on my way home and I went over there and took her blood pressure and pulse, and of course she was totally fine. I had no way to check her blood sugar. I just sat down with her and she started crying again and told me that she was still really sad and wanted me to hold her-so I did for awhile until she stopped crying. Then I went and got her ice cream. When I came home I was feeling good and told her that she could call me for anything anytime she needed me-guess that was a big fat mistake now wasn’t it>
Anyway, I don’t think she has figured out yet that I am going NC. I am determined for it to stick since I am finally completely and totally 100% sure of what she is now-no more doubts-the mask flew off and she’s exposed. I know she has high blood pressure-it’s the only health issue she says she has. If it would be my luck that she calls me for one of these “ailments” and I don’t come, and she actually has something wrong-like a heart attack or stroke, can she try and hold me responsible for that? Can I be held responsible for that since I’m a nurse. I know that the Good Samaritan law doesn’t require me to stop and help someone. If she complains of chest pain or something else does that still apply-since I’m a nurse.
Back_from_the_edge
hens: good to read you. Right on: pair of Cardinals in the holly bush. I love stuff like that too. It’s those little things that make life so special and worth it. Yep, just like breathing…a good thing.
I can copy and paste too! Does that make me a genius? hehe
Yep, I have a bad case of CRS too hens, so we can start a club.
Have a good night and hope your Cuban hottie winds for ya…xxoo
Ana
Hello,
Does anyone know if this kids parents are still living? Interesting to know this cause the father would not take this ‘insult’ lightly!
MoonDancer
Nurse lizzy – i have tick fever would you bring me some ice cream, your a nurse and all ya know…i feel faint, hurry please..
ElizabethBennett
Hens- I would totally bring you ice cream if you didn’t live so far away. That was a really weird thing. WHen it happened, I wanted to ask her why she couldn’t just tell me that she needed me or wanted me to be there and hold her and all that. She couldn’t or wouldn’t. I feel like such a fool but it felt so damn good holding her. I actually almost kissed her that night. I felt like she wanted me to, but now I’m so glad I didn’t. It would make it so much harder to get over.
MoonDancer
Lizzy, The gal has issue’s that you can not fix, I would move far away if I was you..just sayin..
Thanx for the ice cream offer..hugz
ElizabethBennett
Ya’ll I just feel scared, and I don’t feel scared hardly ever-at least if I am I never admit it, but I’m scared. I’m scared that I’m going to get pulled back in. I’m scared that I can’t get over her. I always thought she would be the hardest one to get over. I’m scared she’s going to do something to try and take me down when she figures out that I am going NC. When the mask came off I found out how vindictive she is. She doesn’t play well with others and she wears that like a badge of honor-like she’s proud of it.
ElizabethBennett
Hens-I don’t wanna fix her. I cannot fix her. The only way to halfway deal with her issues would be to get a shovel, dig up Freud and have him work on her full time! Before we got close she was actually planning on moving. Maybe if she really is starting to date a guy that she’s looking to get married quick. She always told me she didn’t want that, but she is making so many enemies with her job with important people that she doesn’t wanna fight with. I wouldn’t be at all surprised if she didn’t lose her job by the end of the year. If she lost it, in her business and at her age, no one else would hire her. She may sense that and thinks her only way to survive is to get married.
skylar
Liz,
you will continue to be drawn back in as long as you have cog/diss. Even one tiny drop of cog/diss, in a thousand drops of certainty, is enough to drag you back when she turns on the charm and promises to make your dreams come true. Like a gambler in a casino, you can’t walk away if there is that tiny little chance that she might be your dream girl.
If I hadn’t realized that my spath wanted me dead and had killed others, I wouldn’t have been able to leave him. When the stakes are too high, that’s when I fold the cards and walk (or run) away. Otherwise, hey, why not roll another game?
What I’ve realized now is that there are different kinds of death. There’s the quick death and there’s the slow death. Slow is how they usually kill. It can be agonizing but, like the frog in boiling water, you really can’t tell what’s killing you.
Living next to her is dangerous for you. Have you considered therapy? Maybe someone can help you build better defenses against her so you don’t have to do this alone.