One of Lovefraud’s readers is Joshua Noel Tanner, a young man who is a singer-songwriter. He has personal experience with sociopaths, and has written a song called Old Father Incubus based on his experiences. I found the song to be creative, haunting and accurate. Caution: It includes narration that some readers may find to be triggering.
You can buy the song, and listen to the rest of Joshua’s album, on his band website.
Or, you can listen to it on YouTube.
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Joshua you’re to be congratulated!!! You are only as sick as your secrets. I believe that because you chose to go forth and tell the truth or “expose” the monster that you personally have taken the first step on the path to healing and normalcy. I think it’s wonderful that you have chosen to look after yourself and your own feelings. Because the truth in life is that no one else is going to do it for you. In fact your siblings will all have a better chance of normalcy if you strike out and search for peace in your life. What you’ve done takes a boatload of courage. You should feel strengthened by your actions. Courage takes strength. I think it’s the cowards in life that are weak and Bullies. Your father is a big fat bully. Save yourself first young man. Continue forward in strength!
Elizabeth-“uses that as a barometer for how much she is upsetting me”… I found out the same about my nh. He got me to smoke when we meet. We both smoked for years. Then when he took the job that keeps him away, he all but quit smoking. Ha, he never was very addicted, just had to keep smoking so I would. Then when he took his new job, I am sure he all but quit to show me…”none of this is bothering me”. I just know he takes delight in watching me grab one cig after another. Ugh
Hang in there. In the end you’ll be stronger, smarter and oh so wise.