Recovery from a sociopath

This week I've been thinking a great deal about how we move back to authenticity after having lived in a false reality with a sociopath. After all, like so many of us here, when I was in the grips of that particular relationship, I believed that everything was real at the time. More than real in actual fact — it was all my dreams come true! So now, I'm wondering, how do I know — really know — whether I'm living in an authentic way or once again falling in to a contrived existence that is nothing more than imagination or self-deception? Yes it's true that I am physically free from him (and have been for nearly three years thank goodness) but am I really free from the thought patterns that had …

Authenticity – After The Sociopath, Finding Peace In Being RealRead More

I've just travelled back from the UK today, and during my journey I read an article that made me sit up and take notice. It's the story about a teenage girl, Gemma Barker, who created three separate male aliases in order to dupe her female friends in to sexual relationships with her. She had made enormous efforts to develop and maintain these aliases. She succeeded so well, in fact, that not only the victims but also their families were fooled in to believing that Gemma was a boy. Whilst it's claimed that she suffers from autism spectrum disorder and ADHD, the judge still called her “Cunning and deceptive” and the report states that she showed no remorse when handed her sentence. Ring any bel …

When Love Isn’t Real – The Shame Of DeceptionRead More

This week my post is inspired by a throw-away comment from my son. We were sitting in the kitchen, eating vegetable soup together while he downloaded a new app for my iPhone that will allow us to stay in contact more easily when I'm in the UK. As is often the case, the carrier has updated their terms and conditions so, before I could complete the download, I had to agree the changes. “You don't really want to read the 55 pages of new terms and conditions do you Mum?” asked Dylan, just checking the seemingly obvious before checking the “I agree” box. I laughed and shook my head - of course I didn't!  And that's when he said “Did you know that's the biggest lie that people tell — not just on …

Saying “Yes” Without Reading The Small PrintRead More

  It's been a funny old week for me. I am within spitting distance of completing a final piece of the jigsaw that releases me from my past — infuriatingly it's still so close and yet so far. Over the past couple of years I've learned that some things just can't be rushed. I've also learned that patience is indeed a virtue and that, contrary to the many messages I have been told throughout my life, I've realised that now I do possess it... in bucket loads! True, I still might kick and sulk a little when I'm required to demonstrate that particular skill — but there is no question. I can do it, and when necessary, it's something that I've found can be exceptionally useful. Funny, don …

There’s Always A Gift – Even When The Situation Seems HopelessRead More

It's Valentines Day today — a day that, I'm quite sure, can generate bittersweet memories for many. If I choose to think about this festival only in association with the traditional interpretations of cupid, love, relationships, romance and all that entails then yes, I could indeed become sad and morbid myself. I might be tempted to dwell on the past and mourn the ”˜what if' scars that are the war wounds I usually wear with pride. It's even possible that I might even fall in to the trap of once again berating myself for allowing myself to be duped”¦ Associations. Thoughts. Patterns. Behaviours. These are all fascinating tools that I honestly believe are here with an intention to serve us w …

Dancing With MyselfRead More