A 24-year-old guy described himself in an Internet forum: He doesn’t feel emotion, is an excellent liar, becomes bored quickly, and experiences an adrenalin rush when deceiving or angering someone else. He asks, is he a sociopath?
I’d answer yes. The post is an interesting insight into how a disordered young man perceives himself and others.
Read Self-diagnosing sociopathy on the Dr. Robert forum.
Louise
BBE:
No, unfortunately, he would not have been honest with you. I don’t know him, but from everything you have said, he would lie to you.
behind_blue_eyes
If not lie, he would do something obfuscating to change the subject.
Actually, if I ever had the chance, I would actually ask “why didn’t you tell me you are HIV+…”
First, I am so sure he is; second it would make him nervous that somebody told me about him…
Louise
BBE:
Yep, it would make him nervous and I really hope you get to ask that question some day…I really do. I hope you get closure because I know it is important. It was extremely important to me and I didn’t think I would EVER get it; I just knew I never would, but miraculously I did.
behind_blue_eyes
Louise;
The whole thing was so bizarre for me and this is why its still too much on my mind, particularly the HIV thing as it was subtly there.
Its why he was so nervous on our first real date away from his friends. He asked my why the Empire State Building was lit red. He did not know that the colors it is lit mark the day. This weekend, it was red, white and blue for Independence Day.
That night, it was red for World AIDS Day…
Louise
BBE:
Hmmm, well, I hope you do find the truth some day about him. I know how all consuming it can be 🙁
behind_blue_eyes
I need to put my closure focus on me. I think he knows I found the first profile, so I sincerely doubt he will contact me. Plus, I have no plans to travel to England before next year. Even then, I would need to accidentally run into him. I have no intention for any direct contact.
Thanks again.
Back_from_the_edge
blue_eyes: FOCUS ON YOU!
My hugs and thoughts are with you…
I am trying to do the same.
DUPED
Louise
BBE:
You know…I have come to realize that NC is really the way to go, BUT…sometimes having contact at least for one last time is good because it’s the only way closure is ever going to happen. And sometimes more contact is needed to end up disliking the person so badly that you never WANT to have contact again. As I said in an earlier post, I think that is what has happened to me. I was left in a “fantasy” mode because I didn’t have him in my life long enough.
candy
Blue – There’s a spare room here should you ever find yourself on my side of the pond. You would be most welcome and not a spath in sight!
behind_blue_eyes
Candy;
Thanks! I hope you are not in Lewisham…