Recovery from a sociopath

By Eleanor Cowan On Tuesday, a young friend from Montreal called with good news. A single mother of four children, proud of her escape from an abusive ex-husband, Kaila is back at school, works part-time to cover the groceries, and, each week it seems, successfully faces yet another challenge to advance her world. On Monday, a problem with the toilet required a plumber. Kaila called the “cheapest in town” ad circled in red ballpoint in an old phone book. In his early 50’s, the uniformed plumber waited for Kaila to return from taking her children to school that morning. As he inspected the toilet in her apartment, he began to talk about the high cost of living. Raising his eyebrows, he w …

After the sociopath, taking back power and standing up to bad behaviorRead More

By Eleanor Cowan One winter’s day, busy preparing to drive to a free art lesson for my children and their young friends, my disagreement with my husband took an unwanted turn. I’d contested Stan’s view of God’s endless compassionate mercy and boundless clemency. “If that’s so true,” I asked, “What’s hell for?” My husband was a covert pedophile, although I didn't know it at the time. Molesting our young daughter and ridiculing our son at every opportunity, while I was at safely at work, Stan never took responsibility for an addiction he knew was morally wrong. Even though he’d molested his own siblings as a teenager, he still felt entitled to become a seminarian as a young man. Aft …

Sociopath exerts control by holding important people and events hostageRead More

[youtube_sc url="https://youtu.be/rJNFeHHGGN4"] Over the weekend Terry, my husband, and I watched The Zookeeper's Wife, a movie is set in Warsaw, Poland, during World War II. It tells the true story of how after animals at the Warsaw Zoo were bombed and shot, the couple that ran the zoo used the property to hide Jews from the Nazis until they could be transported to safety. It's a good movie, but as you can imagine, it is tense and emotional. My reaction to the film, plus the normal stress of daily life, made it difficult for me to sleep. Perhaps the connection I felt to the movie was a distant memory — if you've read my book, Love Fraud, you may remember that I describe how I learned a …

To recover from the sociopath, and protect yourself from another one, work on relieving your emotional tensionRead More

[youtube_sc url="https://youtu.be/DA7mgTBLiv8"] Let’s go party on days that end in Y, drink Russian, drive German, wear Italian and kiss French! Friends, if you are expecting some guidance on this subject, I might not be the right person. The final practice of our 30-Day self-love and healing journey is about rewarding yourself. It’s about rewarding the process, and not the outcome. Following up from the previous session on failing, this brief visualization exercise once again redefines failure, an act that is not about falling, but about getting up. Rewarding yourself is something you can do consistently to help yourself get up and rise up. This exercise also draws parallels bet …

Self-Love and Healing Journey Day 30: CelebrateRead More

[youtube_sc url="https://youtu.be/cTC1oH0HTig"] Another four letter F word you might think, and you are quite right! We learned about FINE and it’s quite fine to fail, since failure is the First Attempt In Learning. If you define it as anything else, it may be a misconception. We have been programmed to perceive failure as a negative experience, however, this practice redefines this word and encouraging us to fail - fail today, fail tomorrow and fail over and over, because every time you fail, you get one step closer to your dream! Open up your dream journal and decide to fail for each dream. If you don’t fail, someone else will hire you to work on their own dreams, fail for them, so …

Self-Love and Healing Journey Day 29: FAILRead More

[youtube_sc url="https://youtu.be/NsHBjPwT9nY"] Did you VAKS this morning? If not, you have probably missed an opportunity to get one step closer to your goal or dream. Many successful people use similar exercises to achieve great results as part of their mental conditioning. Watch the brief session to learn about VAKS and how you can integrate it into each and every day to see changes in your life. Exercises like this would probably take only 5 minutes, but it is so important to make them as part of your daily routine. Plan your day to allow enough time for yourself, otherwise things will get in the way and you will realize you haven’t even spared a second of your day to look y …

Self-Love and Healing Journey Day 28: VAKSRead More

[youtube_sc url="https://youtu.be/O8a3UExwFGc"] For some TIME stands for Tears In My Eyes, and for some others it’s a Triumphant, Innovative Meaningful Experience. Time may be a noun for you and a verb for me. It depends who is using it and how, but one thing we all know for sure is that time is FREE for all of us, and it is the most priceless thing. Let me reveal a secret, if you are reading this sentence, you are wasting five seconds of your time, but…you are wasting it wisely. This quick visualization exercise will help you understand how you can become the pilot of the time. We all know that time flies, but not many of us get ready to take off our jets and enjoy that extraordinary f …

Self-Love and Healing Journey Day 27: TIMERead More

By Eleanor Cowan “She broke her neck on her way down,” said a police officer at the scene. Thick yellow spray paint outlined an ovary-shaped form on the grass from which my mother’s body had been removed, wrapped in a zippered tarpaulin. Two screaming witnesses, bathers who’d been enjoying a pleasant afternoon by the building’s outdoor pool on that sunny August day, had happened to glance up to witness my mother’s horrid plummet from her seventh-floor balcony. “She didn’t feel the final impact,” the investigator added. I noticed a tinged bloodstain on the grass. “The skull sustained a crack,” said the kindly officer, following my gaze. This week, more than four decades since my mo …

Our cultural conspiracy of silence about predators and pain finally begins to crackRead More

[youtube_sc url="https://youtu.be/0dyXTMNpwgg"] When is the last time you have done something creative? Think about the film photography. If you remember looking at one of your old camera films, all you used to see on that strip was negatives. If you ever get curious how positives are developed from negatives, it’s a creative, but a complicated process - it involves removing chemicals by washing, bleaching, drying and other bizarre procedures. In the end we get beautiful quality pictures that receive everyone’s admiration. Like the film photography, life is developed from negatives. We have already learned about bizarre procedures like detoxing, cleansing, energizing, working out our bo …

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